Three Weeks Later

It is almost three weeks since I ran my marathon…I have learned a lot since then. I am glad I was able to complete another marathon, though it was not the time I wanted. Sometimes things happen and we can’t control them, but we can learn from them. I truly appreciate being able to run. I keep thinking about the day I ran my first two miles in a row on a treadmill. I think it is easier to remember that day, rather than the day I completed my first 5k.

I need to appreciate the huge milestones in running. I need to realize I have gone a lot farther than people and be proud of my accomplishments. I truly do hope I get to run the Boston Marathon someday, but maybe this year it just isnt in the cards.

I have had a great deal of trouble getting back into running…I even struggled with making a ten minute mile…but I listened to my body and I just needed rest. I think with marathon training, we put ourselves through so much endurance that we need to stop and just take a break. I am looking forward to some good base runs and long runs, but I was glad to take it easy…

I am feeling a lot better now and I know I will work hard and eventually get my sub 4 marathon on healthy legs.  I have also learned that even though I have to miss some races, life goes on and I can still have a lot of fun.

I have pulled out of:

St. Michael’s Half Marathon, Maryland

Marine Corps Historic Half, Virginia

Pacing the Buffalo Marathon

Run for the Dream Patriot’s Challenge: 8k and Half Marathon in Williamsburg, Virginia…

but I am being smart and I hope I will be more than fine for my upcoming pacing gigs  :)  since I think pacing is my favorite :)

I have had a lot of fun with my students as I wrap up my `12th year of teaching, and I even went to a really nice smores party!!!!!  I am looking forward to being more social now that I am in town for a little while…I think life happens and maybe its a good thing to focus on something other than running….I definitely lack social skills and it will be nice to actually make some friends in the area ..and I will hopefully get to see some out of town friends too!!!!!

and bs good luck to my friend, Melissa Breen, who will be running the buffalo marathon Sunday…. Sorry I can’t run with you !!

Time and patience is the key…happy Friday!!!!!

Cox Providence, Rhode Island Marathon #4 review

“Sometimes nothing said speaks louder than words.”

imageI have

beimageen putting off writing this all day. If I don’t now, I might never. I don’t know where to start or what to say. I wonder sometimes that if we live previous lives, if maybe I was a bad person? I know I sound silly but sometimes I just don’t get life.

I know I should be proud and I did pr..but what happened?  I have been training so hard. I don’t think a lot of people know what it is like to be a full time mom and go train for a marathon.  I get up early, I work full time, I get Lilly ready, and I run all the time. I’m juggling three lives that I love: a mom, a teacher, and a runner.

I run six days a week, one is a long run.  I have had babysitters a lot and have been saving money to work hard at this.  I have speed, but sometimes I don’t have endurance.

Here is what happened:

I tapered these past two weeks. I did my 75-90 minute run last weekend….then I had a fever Monday, so I stayed home from work. I went to practice and did my sharpener….it felt great…6:25 pace- nailed it!

My my ultimate goal was to get a 3:38- enough to get me into Boston…. When the race started, it started late.  There was an accident on the course so we needed to be patient.  We started close to 8:00 am…. It felt great and I was on fire… Every step felt awesome.  I watched my pace and my goal was to bank a little time for the hills and it worked smoothly.  I was on target…. I would go and have a negative split.  I reached the halfway point at my goal.  I know at mile three I was at 23:03.  At mile 6, I was just under 48.  At mile 11, I was at 1:30…. I was on it….mile thirteen I was cruising…. Then by mile 14, something happened… You know when you are running and all of a sudden something happens and your leg feels horrible??? This was me.  I have piriformis and burcitis.  This was much more though.  I kept running but I had to overcompensate.  My ankle throbbed and my calf was on fire… It was like I had turned into jello.  I don’t know what I pulled or did, but my left hip hated me by the end a well. It could be a sciatic nerve too… All I know is that mentally I had my heart in this…. Physically, my body just could not hold up…. I reached mile 18 and the 3:45 pacer caught up. I wanted to cry because I am capable of it…. Every step felt awful.  I think at mile 20, I pushed it a little to try to make up ground but I just hurt too much.

At mile 22, I wanted to cry when the 4:00 pacer went by.  It wasn’t fair.  I could easily run under 4:00.  Instead, I finished in 4:03. I know it is a pr…but I have never trained for a marathon so it doesn’t feel like a pr.  It feels like my body failed and  I ultimately failed.  By the time I finished, my friend Linda was there.  I cried in her arms.  I had it and I wanted it…. But my body couldn’t do it.

Mistakes:  I didn’t really warm up beforehand and my stretching was worthless because we waited around.  I did go fast in the beginning but 8:01 is not too bad for me and I did slow it down and officially could barely run by mile 17, which I clocked a 9:58…. Ouch!

Next steps: I’m trying to go to a doctor but it doesn’t seem to be working.  I went to a bunch of doctors and it’s hard to see a new doctor.  I’ve been told running isn’t good for me and to try A class called pure barre.

Coaching- he probably hates me or thinks I’m a goner.

Emotions:  I don’t know what to say. I had what I wanted and I lost it.  If I didn’t have it I’d be fine and I would have my sub four.  I wonder if I feel better in a few weeks if I should try it again?  I also wonder if I should give up on my dreams and face the thought that running isn’t good for me.  I won’t give up running but it takes it’s toll on me and I need help to get better.  There is a huge part of me that knows I can do this…. But how long will it take?  When can I go after it again? I’m afraid I’ll go out and constantly do marathons now just to bq…. But will it work or will it take all of the running out of me?

I don’t know what to say to people who ask me how I did.  Most people would say my time is good…but my heart was set on a bq.  I didn’t just want it for me.  I wanted it for Lilly. I wanted it for all the single moms out there…I know it seems silly to be fixated on a race…. But it’s Boston and I don’t have much in life.  I’d love to win a unicorn for Lilly…. And I can do this…. But I’m so down now.  How do I move on?  I’ve been smiling all day, but I’m just sad inside….All these miles… All the time training… And to lose it?

i have no idea what to think or say…

Race the Runways #63 and round 2

“Someone has to rock second place,” with bib 1!


Yesterday, I woke up at dawn to go run the airport imagechallenge… This was my second year participating in Race the Runways in Brunswick, Maine. The airport challenge is a one mile race, followed by a half marathon! ! The start times are great! I just had to get up early to make sure I didn’t forget the pacing signs! I was the 2:15 pacer for Beast Pacing! I love pacing because I usually meet first time half marathoners!!!!

The medal was awesome this year!!!! The propeller even spins! I love the shirts again, though I like the blue and orange one from last year… I wore it this year :)….

I liked the course…. It was nice and flat! I have to admit I’m a hill seeker. I practice on hills and realize a lot of people do not so it is fun to pass on the hills….as a pacer, I felt like this was a great course for a pr…the girls I helped all had a chance to pr and some of the girls were running their first half marathons! This course was not intimidating, though it was very windy…..I am totally coming back next year. I did the half in 1:49 last year and I’m confident that I could pull off a 1:45 on it next year unless the course is changed!  The elevation change throughout only added up to 75 basically I went over a couple of speed bumps….

As for the mile….. I’m mad at myself for not pushing my pace and again, ending up in second place.  I also came in second last year and finished with a 6:44 time…..the airport challenge took place this year and I think I had a imagegreat shot at winning…. But I do love pacing and it wasn’t about me! Maybe next year!!!  I also had bib number 1!!!! Next year he will give me bib 2 I’m sure hahahaha! Always second! Next year!!!! I won’t eat Girl Scout cookies!!! I also won’t pull my hamstring at the Syracuse half marathon!

The kids had a great .3 mile race! I was excited my daughter had bib 1 along with the other kids…of course she wanted a different number than me… She got a cool shirt and a finisher medal!!! I can’t believe it was free!!!!

Thank you volunteers!!! We couldn’t run without you and thanks for all of the preparation and behind the scene activity…I helped out with a race before…. I don’t know how people do it!!!!!!!

Ill be back and it’s a great race!!!! Put this one on your bucket list!!!!

Syracuse Half Marathon- #62

IcemanimageimageMelissa! Outrun the odds for those who cantimageSam and I image

“There is no point in being grown up if you can’t be childish sometimes. ” – dr who

I am sitting here after one roller coaster of a week. The deck of cards has been stacked against me. It started out with my apartment door. I locked myself out with no shoes or socks on. I didn’t have a phone either. Then I knocked on doors With people who were home. I ended up breaking my door.

image Megan racing for 1:29!

imageSt. Michaels

I was hoping things would get better from there but work did not help. I love my students and I’m happy to help but I’m running out of chairs and I want to do what is best for them…. So work didn’t help. Then, someone used my debit card and took all my money out of my bank. I was grossed out when I found out they used it to subscribe to a porn site. Luckily, I canceled the card and they are going to give me the money back… In a week! I’m glad I have emergency money!!!!   I figured I was done with bad luck.

Then, I broke my armband for my running! I had a race the next day. Okay, now I thought my bad luck was gone!!!!

My friends came from Rhode Island and went to Wegmans for the first time!!! That was fun. I now appreciate my grocery store! I love my $6 dinners!!!

So I couldn’t sleep last night. I tossed and turned and felt like garbage. I freaked out because there was no parking and we finally found parking and missed the group y picture so I was disappointed. I enjoy being a Syracuse Y Runner as much as a Oiselle runner! So I ran into Jen Brady from oiselle and she kicked butt today!!!

A shout out goes to Megan James for crushing her pr by 6 minutes and finishing in 1:29!!!! Wooooowwwwww!!!  That is awesome!

I also want to thank my good friend, Melissa Nassiff, who finally got her 1:49 pr!!!! I’m also glad she was okay and ran more miles!!!!

annndddd drumroll!!!!! Sam! I have to thank Sam!!! You have no idea! Sam has a heart of gold! He came over and helped me with my door Monday night after he finished running… I was concerned about safety and he came right over.  Then, I texted him upset about work this week and I’m glad he helped me through my base Friday! Saturday…. Poor Sam should have changed his number… I text him saying my bank has been hacked and he called me and my road rage disappeared!!!!

Then, he wins the gold star because I was so excited he was going to run with

me and I was going to go under 1:40 today…. I was so excited I thought I could do it!!!!! I did

my best and was so happy to get up the James Street hill….. But then my shin hurt so bad I lost it…. I haven’t felt that before and it worries me… I tried to keep going but it just felt awful….he told me to slow down but I wanted my 1:40…. Sounds awesome and doable…. So I couldn’t do it is the moral…. But I never would have finished if Sam had not been there…. I felt bad and apologized 800 times and I can’t stop thanking him enough! I wanted him to go on but he wouldn’t and he helped me so much… He should be a race pacer and coach!

My favorite part of the ymca program is the incredible people you meet along the way! I could not have finished today if it weren’t for the y runners! Lol and Sam will never read this I bet but I owe him 1.000 thanks! There are not many people Out there who would give up their race time for someone and I was happy to not quit… It was looking a little bleak….he even got me water and Gatorade throughout!!! Best race pacer ever!!  Then at the end I wanted to amputate my right leg and just hop to the finish line, but his encouragement got me to just go and finish!!!! Sam you really need to do race pacing! You rock at it….

so without anymore arguing, I need to visit my schedule… I am still pacing because it is what I love to do…I’m not as gifted as Sam but I’ll try!!!

but I need to be realistic…. If I want Boston I need to take it easy on my

knee and I believe the shin is bothering me because of the knee…. I’ve been dragging my right foot more lately so that most likely bothers the shin…. It is the domino affect…. Soooo I’m dropping out of a half marathon in May….. :( I’m sad to say I will no longer be doing…St. Michael’s but don’t feel sorry for me…. If I cut down the races and work on weights more, I believe I can help my knee… I also need more speed work and the races are killing it!!!!

So for now, this will just have to be a great memory and not something to look forward to! As for Syracuse, I liked the course better last year because they added too

many hills and potholes!

oh before I go, shout out to the “iceman” for his 1:23 today… Love the hat!!! Go Jeff Faherty!!!

The moral of today is that it wasn’t my day… But it was for everyone I know. I am proud of them and thankful for all of them! Today was a race, I never once felt alone…. Thank you y runners, coach Yoda “KC” and thank you to Sam!

Race schedule update

March 22- Syracuse half

april 3- airport challenge brunswick, maine

2:15 half marathon pacer

april 18- b.a.a. 5k boston

april 19- earth day half bville, ny?

may 3- providence Rhode Island full marathon

may 16- st. Michaels half Maryland

may 17- marine corps historic half fredericksburg va

may 30-31- run for the dream series in williamsburG, virginia

june 13? Nate race 20k ny

June 14- beast pacing 2:00 half pacer cedar point run and ride ohio

june 28- Bristol, Rhode Island half maratbon

july 11/- beast pacing half marathon2:00 pacer old port shipyard Portland, maine

july 12- Saratoga springs half marathon 2:00 pacer

july 24- Wakefield mass marathon at night

august 23- north shore half marathon massachusetts 2:00 pacer

August 30- 18.12 challenge sacketts harbor

september 19- gulf beach half marathon ct

october 4- Maine coast half marathon

October 18- bay state marathon massachusetts

December 15- kiawah marathon South Carolina

racing season!!!!


Lilly is happy today is Friday!!!!!!  Woo hoo weekend…too bad mommy has to cram a 3 hour run in!

imageOkay okay!!!!!

It is racing season!!!! I am already overwhelmed with races and there are gaps In my calendar.  I am excited to be pacing with “beast pacing!” Pacing is my favorite and I hope people enjoy running with me and I can help them reach their goals!!! Excited! image

(And here is my race outfit for my full marathon…. I’m nervous to wear it but excited too! It’s comfortable and of course oiselle!  The competition brief and the Verrazano bra! Love it @oiselle)

I know I am signed up for a lot but I promise to play it smart!!

If my knee bothers me, I will cut it down and I am pacing the 2 hour group so I will be okay for them :)….. I’d love to pace a full marathon someday but I’ve only done 3!

Someone asked me when the last time was I had been on a date? I felt lame admitting I had been a bachelorette on the 93q bachelor 5 dates in five nights. I should not have went and it was a waste of time….

I love running and hope I get to Boston but it feels like my life has turned into running. I would love to date a runner, but sometimes it’s relieving to spend time with someone who doesn’t run.  I don’t know anything about basketball or football…and I would love to learn. I know a little about baseball but only because I played softball for 7 years.

It would be different if I were elite but I think my chances of that went out the window long before my knee.  I think for my birthday, I would love to go on a date….but it has been so long I’d be so nervous and I wouldn’t know what to do….maybe it is surprising I haven’t been on a date but I think this is what happens when you run so much….but I confess I would consider not going to a race to go on a date.

I think there is this common misconception that we eat, breathe, and sleep running… I’m sure it feels that way when people see me….but I’m just as eager to spend time with someone who wants to spend time with me…. Anyhow I’m looking forward to it….when it happens…

So here is my schedule and I won’t deny I might have left something out:

March 22- Syracuse half marathon

april 3- Maine race the runways 2:15 pacer

half marathon

1 mile run

april 18- baa 5k

april 19- earth day half in baldwinsville ny

May 3 full marathon- providence rhode island

may 16- st. Michaels half maryland

may 17- marine corps historic half virginia

May 30-31: run for the dream 8k and half virginia

June 14- run and ride cedar point 2:00 pacer

June 28- Bristol half rhode island

July 11- shipyard old port half Portland Maine 2:00 pacer

July 12- Saratoga springs half marathon pacer 2:00 group

august 23- north shore half pacer massachusetts 2:00

august 30- 18:12 sacketts harbor ny

September 12- bird in hand Pennsylvania

September 19- gulf beach half marathon  ct

October 4- Maine half marathon portland

October 18- bay state massachusetts full

December 15- kiawah full south carolina

Smuttynose 5k and the Ocean’s Run

I usually start with a quote but I don’t have one today. It’s a hard feeling today….. I am not sure how I feel really. I left town Friday and imagewent to Massachusetts. I woke up and ran the 5k easy. It was icy and there were several pot holes… So I took it easy and finished with a 23:11…. Not bad for not trying to kill myself on the ice.

I had so much fun at the carousel lounge. It was fun to watch all of the runners singing. I didn’t drink but had an awesome time!

Then I went to Rhode Island. I went to dinner at an Italian restaurant called “Siena.” I loved it and the food was amazing. I had rizotto with chicken. I had chocolate mousse cake for dessert.  We got up and went to Waikfield for the half. I did it last year after I ran a half. They had to shorten the course.  It said 12.5 but I ran 12.8 and added on to get my 13.1 because I drove for a half marathon.  I finished in 1:44:45 and had a blast. I felt like my old self and this girl told me I was her hero. I get out there and smile and have a great time. I do listen to music to help me breathe and sometimes I don’t.

When I was out there yesterday, I thought about how hard I had worked to get where I was with running and I want it back. I think if you have the heart for it you will do well.  It’s funny now my tired legs suddenly felt like they could go on forever. I didn’t hurt anymore and the shin splints I felt didn’t bother me.  I just ran with my heart. It worked and I hope it keeps happening.

My coach would kill me but I took a few days off this week. I feel miserable. When I am not racing, I’m home alone when I don’t have Lilly. I go to work and want to fit in and have a good time….but it just isn’t happening.  I love my kids and they make my day but the silence drives me crazy. I don’t know what to do and I’d be lying if I said I was happy…I want to stay but I also want to belong. I don’t know what to do but I’m just gonna be myself…. Maybe that is the hardest part. I come back from these amazing places and here, I just feel ordinary. I’m noticed as the runner but I’m invisible as the teacher..and it’s funny because I love being a teacher…. Is it possible to be noticed as both…? I do not remember what was like to not be a runner.  I started when I was 26 so it’s been about 8 years…. But I have been teaching for 12 years. In any case, this was my 61st half :)


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