“A good character is the best tombstone. Those who loved you and were helped by you will remember you when forget – me – nots have withered. Carve your name on hearts, not on marble. ” – Charles H. Spurgeon.
I feel like it has been forever since I have written in my blog. The truth is I had a lot of time I needed to get over my marathon. I had such a good run until mile 15. I don’t know what happened to me and I just fell apart. I was mentally ready but I was just in so much pain I could no longer run.
About 2 weeks before my marathon, I felt a pain in my hip. Between my hip and my knee, I was hurting too much to continue at my pace of sub 8:17. I knew what I needed for Boston and I wanted to fight for it. I thought about how far I have come in life and how hard I have worked for this moment. I thought for sure I had it.
When I crossed the finish line in 4:03, my heart was devastated. I was so sad I must have cried forever it seemed. When I came home to New York, I took the next week off and focused on other aspects of life. I had a great time. I went for a long walk at Green Lakes with my friend, Marguerite Dodd. I had a great time and it was nice to forget all about the aches and pains of the marathon. I think the marathon takes too much out of me but I want to go to Boston.
Lilly had her dance recital coming up so I focused on taking her to dance and getting some cross training in. I know I have the speed to get me to Boston….but I needed to go to PT. I went to PT with my friend, Megan James. After working her magic, I tried to come back to running. It was not working.
Somewhere along the way, I forgot about the pains of not being able to run by cross training with my friend, Lauren…and I also had a chance to help crew for her boyfriend. I had a great time and met some amazing people. I think it is important to take a step back from something occasionally and focus on other aspects of life. I was happy to help out and I had a great time…it is amazing…I am realizing you can enjoy life even when you are not running.
I had Lilly last weekend and we went to the mall. She has been nagging for a boy doll to play marriage with. I took her to the Disney store and she picked out Flynn Rider. He was a keeper because he was the least creepy doll. We have been basking in the Panera food and wandering around the mall. I think that I have a pretty amazing, special daughter.
Her ballet recital was super cute and she did wonderful. I know she will want to sign up again. I have to say little girls running around in tutus are pretty stinkin cute!!!!
Lilly has her new Wee Bird tank from Oiselle. She loves it and I wore my Bird Machine tank too. I like that there are children’s shirts, but I wish there were more!!!! I just think it is adorable to match :)….
I have received a few things from Oiselle that I am in love with <3
1. I finally got the tool belt roga shorts in the egg shell color and I cannot wait to wear them!
2. I have the rizzo bikini and bottoms in blueberry.
3. I also received the wings out sweatshirt in midnight. I paired that with the midnight colored layer love tank. I think it would also look amazing with the yellow tank.
4. I can’t say enough about the layer love tank in stripes. I love it!!!! I wore it last night and didn’t want to take it off.
I am lucky to have such wonderful clothes from Oiselle. I truly enjoy being a flock member and hope to represent Oiselle again this year. I hope they let me !!!!! I am not racing for a while. I finally had an MRI on my hip. I am still thinking a lot about it. The doctor came in and said: “I have good news and I have bad news.” Imagine what went through my head.
I found out that my hip is fine. I am still a little concerned about my knee but I am not thinking about the knee at this moment. I am more concerned about what is going on that is impacting my running. I found out I have a 5cm cyst that is hitting my hip. It is on my left hip. I also have a smaller cyst on my left side. Then, I have one on my right side that is eventually going to bother my right hip. I tried to not get overwhelmed with emotion but all I can think is: “What does this mean?” What does this mean??????
The doctor I talked to recommended I go for an ultrasound. I am going today to meet with another doctor and hopefully get an ultrasound sooner than later. She thinks they should remove it because I am rather on the little side and it will continue to bother me. They will most likely treat it conservatively, but I want to get back to running and I am worried about how long this will take to get better. I guess I should be happy to run, but I hate the pain that has to come along with it. I mean, I just hurt all the time now. I am rather stubborn, so I am not letting it get to me.
On a good note, I know I will get better and I have had a lot of amazing things happen to me…I am not one to tell but life is pretty fantastic right now. I think things happen for a reason and I would normally be freaking out about this…but I have been having such great days I barely think about it. I am almost done with school for the summer. I cannot wait! I will certainly miss my students but I would like to rest and enjoy my time.
Have a great day and remember to be thankful for what you have :)