“Below Zero…and Double Booked”

“They say a good love is one that sits you down, gives you a drink of water, and pats you on top of the head. But I say a good love is one that casts you into the wind, sets you ablaze, makes you burn through the skies and ignite the night like a phoenix; the kind that cuts you loose like a wildfire and you can’t stop running simply because you keep on burning everything that you touch! I say that’s a good love; one that burns and flies, and you run with it!”
― C. JoyBell C.


This jogger is going to collect dust!!!!

That moment you get up in the morning and see the sun shining is bliss…but bliss can quickly turn to disgust around Manlius these days. I woke up today to a windchill of -14!!!!!! What the heck? I have started to dream about running outside in the Spring and sweating to just get the idea in my head that it is possible to run outside in this. I was wrong. I have racing season coming up and I cannot get sick. Therefore, you know what this means.


This week, I have had a low of nine miles so far. Today is Friday and I have to work tomorrow morning. I do not see it getting much warmer outside so I have to face the dreadmill. It will be hard. I have a funny story for you. Here it goes:

I was on the dreadmill today. I sometimes get lost in the run and the music. I was listening to Drake’s song, “We’re Going Home.” I get caught up in the beat. Well, I was doing intervals. I had a mile of 8:45, then I jogged, then I ran at a 7:03 minute pace…etc…so I get ready to switch it back up again and I slipped. I started to try to grab the side of the treadmill. I am saying, “Oh shit!” I end up off the treadmill…not falling but far from graceful. Well, I had been alone the entire time but wouldn’t you know it…there was a guy standing right behind me. He was cute, though married. He asked if I was alright so I let him know I was fine in complete embarrassment. Then he asked where the bathroom was. I let him know where it was in exchange for his promise of forgetting this ever happened. I guess you can tell when someone is a long distance runner because they are completely klutzy on the dreadmill. Huff Huff!

On to more important things…”Double Booked”


I have been looking up medal hangers and decided to go with my usual style. I was hoping for 18 hooks, but there was only one for 15. My goal this year is 18 half marathons. I better not win anything else because it is already coming out my ears. I figured buying a hanger was a good way to make me reach my goals…but as you can see, I have a lack of space. I guess there could be worse things. Soooo…

I have been working on my racing schedule. I use the website http://www.halfmarathons.net
and I really like the website. So I mapped out my races and registered for a bunch. I am sad now. I do not so much mind that I will out some race money because it is for a good cause, but the MACS Half Marathon in Freeland, Maryland, was switched to May 18, 2014. I am already running the Historic Marine Corps Half Marathon in Fredricksburg, Virginia. I am so excited about this race too!

If you are able to run the MACS Half Marathon it is for a good cause. The race is run as a benefit to raise money for the House of Ruth, a Baltimore-based shelter for women who have been victims of domestic violence. Since its founding back in 1977, the center has helped thousands of women and their children reclaim their lives by providing a safe haven from abuse, and today provides a range of programs for women recovering from domestic violence as well as advocating for women who face such abuse.

Here is my upcoming race schedule….I have been muy muy busy: (I am hoping this helps me remember all of my races too)
2014 Goal- 18 Half Marathons (So I make it to 50 half marathons) I do not count full marathons
March 8- Tipp Hill Shamrock Run – Syracuse, NY (4 miles)
1. March 9- The Ocean’s Run Half Marathon- South Kingston, Rhode Island
March 15- Run For Dennis- Oswego, NY (I still have the course record for girls)
2. March 22- Sleepy Hollow Half Marathon- Sleepy Hollow, NY (Excited)
3. March 23- Syracuse Half Marathon

4. April 5- Race the Runways Half Marathon- Brunswick, Maine
5. April 6- Ithaca Skunk Cabbage Classic- NY (The first time I broke 1:40 with a 1:39)
6. April 19- Flannery’s Pub Run Half Marathon- Mercersburg, PA
April 26- Rochester Flower City Duathlon- Rochester, NY (My first solo Duathlon)
7. April 27- Rochester Flower City Half Marathon- Rochester, NY

8. May 4- Greater Binghampton Bridge Half Marathon- Binghampton, NY
May 11- Stiletto Stampede 5k Liverpool, NY
9. May 17- St. Michael’s Running Festival Half Marathon- St. Michael’s, MD
10. May 18- Historic Marine Corps HAlf Marathon- Fredricksburg, VA
May 31- Run for the Dream 8k – Williamsburg, VA PAtriots Challenge

11.. June 1- Run for the Dream HAlf Marathon- Williamsburg, VA
12.. June 14- Half Sauer Half Kraut Half Marathon- Philadelphia, PA (Big German Festival)
13. June 15- New Paltz Half Marathon- New Paltz, NY
14. June 22- Ironman 70.3 Half Marathon leg of Relay team (Scared Hitless) Syracuse, NY
June 28-29 not sure yet

15. July 13- Old Port Shipyard Half Marathon- Portland, Maine (2:15 Half Marathon Pace Leader) Woo Hoo…I need to slow down and practice some of my runs…

So I am still missing 16-18 for my half marathons but I have a lot of ideas. I have some good fall marathons to look at and I am still considering Boston…I need to get some full marathons on the docket.

Before I leave you…it is confession Friday- I do not have much to confess. It was a pretty good week. I wish I could have had some good runs. I think that has made me a little lonely. I enjoy running and all of my free time. I like being independent. I just miss that feeling of having someone to come home to or to share my day with. Lilly is wonderful, but I don’t think she cares about me falling off the treadmill.

“Falling in love is like getting hit by a truck and yet not being mortally wounded. just sick to your stomach, high one minute, low the next. Starving hungry but unable to eat. hot, cold, forever horny, full of hope and enthusiasm, with momentary depressions that wipe you out.

It is also not being able to remove the smile from your face, loving life with a mad passionate intensity, and feeling ten years younger.

Love does not appear with any warning signs. You fall into it as if pushed from a high diving board. No time to think about what’s happening. It’s inevitable. An event you can’t control. A crazy, heart-stopping, roller-coaster ride that just has to take its course.”
― Jackie Collins, Lucky



Reasons Why This Weather Sucks!!!!

“Either you run the day or the day runs you.” -Jim Rohn

Yesterday, I was pumped to run ten miles. I met my goal last week and ran an extra 1.7 miles. Today, I was going to run another ten…Wow!!! Twenty miles of fun…this stupid friggan weather sucks!!!!!!!
Yesterday, I felt like my face was being frozen. Then, the snow felt like pieces of glass hitting my face. It was awful. At this rate, I will never get a date with my face getting all wind burned and gross. This weather once again sucks!

Yesterday, I ended up running 3.5 miles before flipping off the snow. Today, I did not even make it outside. I ran 2.1 miles at the gym. I waited in line for the dreadymill. Tisk Tisk. So I am at 5.6 fantastic miles. This bites.

I have a 4 mile race next Saturday in Syracuse. Then I will be doing a half marathon on Sunday. I hope this weather gets better for my running.

On a side note, I watched some movies this week and I am realizing as much as I love running and just enjoying my time, I am getting a little lonely. I am hoping my race schedule and my beautiful daughter keep me busy. I am also happy to spend time with family and friends.

I want my fairytale…someday…I do not want to look for it. I want it to find me.
“The greatest relationships are the ones you never expected to be in. The ones that swept you off your feet and changed every view you’ve ever had.” -Suhsan Sharma

41.7 Miles of Love

“People sometimes sneer at those who run every day, claiming they’ll go to any length to live longer. But don’t think that’s the reason most people run. Most runners run not because they want to live longer, but because they want to live life to the fullest. If you’re going to while away the years, it’s far better to live them with clear goals and fully alive then in a fog, and I believe running helps you to do that. Exerting yourself to the fullest within your individual limits: that’s the essence of running, and a metaphor for life — and for me, for writing as whole. I believe many runners would agree”
― Haruki Murakami, What I Talk About When I Talk About Running mill8mill6

They say a true love lasts a lifetime. Well, I thought I had that. I lost it. I have fallen back on my running and it has been a huge difference. I have stopped being so competitive and just learned to enjoy the moments. I love feeling the wind rush against me and the lack of sound. I enjoy getting lost in the moment, often not knowing where I am. This week I was astounded to find out I reached my 40 miles. I also added some extra. I was driving home from Maine and my daughter wanted to get out. We stopped at the Head Light in Portland, Maine.

It was absolutely beautiful. I hadn’t been there in a long time. I think I went there in 2012. I remember it being really hot, but I don’t think I saw the fort. It was really cool, but Lilly was cold so we did not go exploring. I have to confess I had a really hard time coming back there. The last time I went, I was not alone. I could not help but reminisce…and I would be lying if I said I did not cry. That was a great trip. We had a great time…In the end, I was worth more than a text message. Eventually, I will forget and get over it. I have never fallen so hard in love before. I can only hope someday, someone will sweep me off my feet and forgive me for being such a miser. It is hard to be treated like shit and move on. I am going back to Portland to pace for the race in July. I hope I can do it.

She asked me if we could go swimming…outside. Children are so cute and innocent. I had to laugh. I later surprised her with a trip to a hotel with an indoor pool. I figured that was an excellent compromise. She graciously agreed. We went swimming. I put it on my Strava account.

Today, we continued our journey home from Boston, Massachusetts. During the drive, Lilly asked me if we could go for a job. I thought about it for a minute. It was sunny and 42 outside. Why the hell not!!! When we arrived back home around 3, I grabbed the jogger and some extra clothes for the playground. We went off on our voyage to Mill Run Park. It is quiet there and about 1.5 miles from my apartment. Lilly is a bit of a drill sergeant. I know who she gets it from…my dad!!! While I am jogging with her, all I can think about is how big she is getting and how she will not possibly fit in the jogger next year. She is shouting, “Faster Mommy!!!!!!” I did not know I was a rickshaw driver. I should have gotten a tip.

I have to go back to work tomorrow, but I am already plotting my weekly mileage. I need some new shoes as well. I confess my old ones are looking a little shady. I am starting to wonder if the lady asked me for a ride the other day because I looked just that bad.

Next week, I am going to work on hills and speed. I hope I get ready for my exciting races coming up. I cannot wait. If there is one thing I have learned, it is just to be full of life and to live. I hope I continue on this refreshing path and maybe convince other people it is alright to be spontaneous. I had a great time going to Concord, Massachusetts this week. I also enjoyed my diverge to Portland, Maine. There is just something about driving by the ocean and taking in the fresh air. Something in the air tells me that I will be alright and I am doing things right…

mill run

“Life is either a daring adventure or nothing.” -Helen Keller

Good Bye Maine…It Has Been Nice Running Here…

Each morning sees some task begun, each evening sees it close; Something attempted, something done, has earned a night’s repose.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow


Today, I ran 4.6 miles on trails, hills, and even in sleet. I woke up to my toddler, who was demanding chocolate milk and bananas. I don’t know if it was the monkey pajamas or the will to have chocolate, but I was ready for a big glass of coffee. I think that my long run of 10 miles earlier this week turned me into jello. I was not ready to run today. I went to Tim Horton’s (Timmy Hoes) today. I had a nice cinnamon bun latte with skim milk and sugar. “Gurl gotta have sum sugar if she gonna run!” I still was not ready to run so I watched some of the Olympics. I watched ice skating yesterday and it leaves me frustrated. I cannot stand to watch all of the skaters tumble on the ice. I also hate how it looks like gymnastics. I feel that it is nicer to watch the skaters who actually perform. I am not one to judge, but I felt more involved in the South Korean skater’s program than the Russian girl’s program. They both skated well, but I felt like the Russian girl was more of a gymnast and the South Korean girl was an artist. Oh well. It is over…I can barely do a single jump on the ice so I would be happy to make it to the Olympics at all. Maybe I can try out and be one of those girls who picks up flowers on the ice. I hear that is fun. I could be like Lo Lo Jones and switch to bobsled. That seems like a fun sport. I would love to try it.

Back to running. I am sad to be leaving tomorrow but I never know what the weather will be like and it takes me 12 hours to drive home. I am going to shoot for home tomorrow, but we will see. I do not have any idea what the weather will be like in Syracuse. We shall see. I am hoping to get to mile 40 before I leave tomorrow, but it depends on the time and the weather. I need to do 5.4 miles to get there and I would like to make it happen before my 12 hour drive. ZZZ

This has been a great vacation. I liked the quiet roads. I thought it was funny that I was asked by a lady if I needed a ride. I guess there are not a lot of runners out here. There was also a freak white-out today. I felt like I was being hit with pieces of glass. It was not pleasant and I diverted to the house. I did take some great pictures but I confess I have not seen a live moose since 2010. That is just crazy. I think they are all dead and in someone’s freezer. I give up. I saw a giant fisher and a fox once. The fisher look really nasty. I do not think I will take one home as a pet. It truly is a nice place to visit.

I am a little bummed I am not going to be around for the world championship biathlon for juniors. I want to watch the biathlon. It sounds like a cool sport and it is a nice place to have the championships. Maybe some other year. I have also never biked here and I think there is a race of some sort. I will have to look into it.

I will be back in Maine on April 5, 2014 if the weather is alright. I am supposed to run the “Race The Runways” half marathon. I need to get back into shape. I love Syracuse, but I am currently single and trying to get back into the sport and be a committed runner. It was a cheap race and the medal and shirt look amazing. I figure it is a great way to have fun and get out and just “live.” I want to go to bed at the end of the day, knowing I lived today to the fullest.


Perseverance is a great element of success. If you only knock long enough and loud enough at the gate, you are sure to wake up somebody.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Winter In Maine

ImageImageImageMaine  is a joy in the summer. But the soul of Maine is more apparent in the  winter.”   –Paul  Theroux

I  had to live this long, have the experiences I’ve had, to create what I do. I  knew I wanted to write for years, but I had to be ready so I wouldn’t blow it.  The move to Maine was the final step.

     I have been wanting to write for ages.  When I started running here, I found out how peaceful it can be.  I know why Steven King and other famous authors and stars move to Maine.  If you check out this website, you would be surprised at how many people live in Maine.  http://www.meliving.com/famousmainers/  I was excited to learn Henry Wadsworth Longfellow was born in Maine.
     One of my favorite Presidents: Teddy Roosevelt, used to visit Island Falls every year.  George Bush has a house in Maine.  Ladies, let’s not forget Patrick Dempsey was born in Lewiston, Maine.  My daughter, Lilly, was born in Maine.  Maybe she will be a famous author or runner someday. 

      You don’t run against a bloody stop watch, do you hear?  A runner runs against himself, against the best that’s in him.  Not against a dead thing of wheels and pulleys.  That’s the way to be great, running against yourself.  Against all the rotten mess in the world.  Against God, if you’re good enough.  ~Bill Persons
     Today was my recovery run and I decided to take a new path.  The weather was nice and It was a heat wave of about 40.  I decided to go up Chandler Road.  I have been on this road before, but I truly appreciated the beauty it had to offer in the Winter.  I have been here in Summer, but it was not the same.

     Today is my fifth day running in a row.  This week, I am up to 30 miles already.  I looked back at the website and I am up to 201.9 miles of running this year.  I hope to break the 1000 mile mark.  I am planning a run tomorrow.  I am sad to have to drive home on Saturday.  It is 12 hours for me and I drive alone.  It is not easy.  I can spend the night, but I want to get home.  It is snowing outside now too so I do not want to hit bad weather on the way home.  I already had my car stuck in the driveway.


Upcoming races:


March 8- Tipp Hill Shamrock 4 mile run Syracuse, NY

March 9- The Oceans Run 1/2 Marathon South Kingstown, RI

March 15- Run For Dennis 5k  Oswego, NY

March 22- Sleepy Hollow 1/2 Marathon Sleepy Hollow, NY

March 23- Syracuse 1/2 Marathon


April 5- Race The Runways 1/2 Marathon  Brunswick, Maine

April 6- Ithaca Skunk Cabbage Classic 1/2 Marathon  Ithaca, NY

April 19- Flannery’s Pub Half Marathon Mercersburg, PA

April 20???

April 26- Duathlon Rochester, NY

April 27- Flower City Half Marathon  Rochester, NY


May 3-?

May 4- The Greater Binghamton Bridge Half Marathon  Binghamton, NY

May 11- Socci Stilletto Stampede 5k  Liverpool, NY

May 17- MACS Half Marahon- Freeland, Maryland

May 18- Historic Marine Corps Half Marathon- Fredricksburg, VA

May 31- Run For the Dream 8k Patriots Challenge   Williamsburg, VA


June 1- Run For the Dream Half Marathon  Williamsburg, VA

June 14-?  1/2 Sauer 1/2 Kraut Half Marathon  Philadelphia, PA

June 15- New Paltz Challenge 1/2 Marathon   New Paltz, NY

June 22- Ironman 70.3 Syracuse Relay runner 1/2 Marathon  Jamesville, NY

June 28-? 50 Yard Finish  Buffalo, NY 1/2 Marathon

June 29- ? Cattamount Half Marathon- Brattleboro, VT


July 12-

July 13- Shipyard Old Port Half Marathon Portland, Maine  (Pacer)


August 9- ? Monadnock Half Marathon   Jaffrey, NH

August 10? Columbus Half Marathon   Columbus, OH

August 24- ?Black Bear Half Marathon- Waterville Valley, NY

August 25- Turningstone Half MArathon  Verona, NY

It Felt Like a Heat Wave


“Running isn’t a sport for pretty boys…it’s about the w sweat in your hair and the blisters on your feet. It’s about the frozen spit on your chin And the nausea in your gut.  It’s about throbbing calves and cramps at midnight that are strong enough to wake the dead.  It’s about getting out the door and running when the rest of the world is dreaming about having the passion you need to live each and every day with…” Paul Mauer


Today felt like a heat wave!!! I ran ten miles today, which means it is Wednesday and I am already up to 23.1 miles for the week and I feel fantastic. It is nice to be on vacation and I am so thankful I can go for a run outside and not have to endure the dreadmill. The weather is a bit iffy right now, so I am glad I did a lot today.

I ran 6.7 Monday, 6.4 yesterday, and ten today. I had to split up my run into two segments. The first half was in 8:47 minutes per mile average and the second half was 8:59…I was freezing because I had to stop…but I am excited to announce I am in the Historic Marine Corps Half Marathon on May 18, 2014. I cannot wait. I did not think I would get in and it was hard to register outside, while trying to run at the same time.

I recently posted about the problems of running and losing weight. Everyone thinks it is great to be in shape and skinny. I am here to shed some light on loving yourself. I talked about dropping weight. I told you I am 121 now and I am going to go back down to 112. I went to the mall with my mom today and found a really pretty shirt. Here is the problem. Everyone thinks it is so great to be skinny, but I could not buy the shirt I loved because it was too big on me and they did not have an extra small. I looked kind of gross in it. I also admit I get quite jealous of my sister because I have no breasts and she doesn’t share. The more you run, the more you lose. I am thankful for the creator of the padded bra…not to overshare, but I just don’t have anything. Being skinny isn’t all that it is cracked up to be.

unhappy Here is a picture of me in my running top…some days I would totally trade….I should be happy that I am healthy, but come on!!!!!!

Here is the shirt I really wanted to buy 😦

Here is my log for this week…so excited to share:

Here is my confirmation for my race WOOOOO HOOO:

I hope this race is good. I ran a race in Virginia, but it was a 5k in February so this will certainly qualify as a half marathon in Virginia. Therefore, one more state I can cross off my list.

States I have ran half marathons in:

Maine (2)
Massachusetts (1)
Pennsylvania (1)
Pennsylvania 2 full marathons
Delaware (2)
Vermont (1)
New York (a Zillion)
Half totals: 32
Full totals: 2

Half Marathons for this year already registered:
New York: 3
Virginia: 1
Rhode Island: 1
MAine: 1

I’m a Maine-iac

“He who is not courageous enough to take risks will accomplish nothing in life.”
-Muhammad Ali

I met Muhammad Ali when I was living in Europe. Out of all the places to run into him, I ran into him in Paris, France. I had to do a double take because I could not believe it. I don’t know if I have told many people that. I found this quote by him and I could not agree more.

Today I got the week rolling with a 6.7 mile run in 59 minutes. I would have ran longer but the windchill is -4 today. Yesterday I ran 2.5 miles in -3 weather. I don’t like running when it is this cold and my face gets really cold. Today my tongue of all things was starting to feel frozen ha ha. If I don’t take risks and run, then I will never reach new heights. The cold only gets to me if I think about it. I ran faster and farther today because I was determined to do well. I am extremely honored to be given a pacing position so I want to do well and I need to get into the “swing” of things. So I need to do work…feel the burn. I am going to keep enjoying the half-moon cookies my mom made, but when I get home it is all business.

You must be laughing at me talking about weight. I have gained about 9 pounds. I am at 121, which is a great weight. I was hoping to stay around this weight in hopes of meeting someone and just enjoying life, but I do not seem to be getting any attention. When I drop weight, I get self- conscious because people think I am either anorexic or there is something wrong with me. I eat…trust me I eat. However, I want to qualify for Boston and I need to stop eating the really naughty food and get more protein. If I do not eat a lot of protein then I think I will be prone to more stress fractures. My times have been awful this year and I know the weather has not helped. However, the excess of Christmas sweets that I have not given up right after Christmas has not helped. I am also prone to diabetes. I had gestational diabetes and I want to stay away from too much sugar. I used to get really dizzy running when I had a lot of sugar. I have to train my body to not need the sugar. Anyhow, I am not looking forward to dropping weight because I feel less attractive and I want to meet “Mr. Right.” I am going to go back down to 112. This seems to be my magic weight. I have averaged a 7 minute mile in my races and I have averaged a 7.5 minute pace in my half marathons. I have to work on getting that pace for my full marathon and I will be golden.

Love will just have to wait…or they will have to like me for who I am rather than the weight I happen to be at. You have to take risks and have determination to reach your goals.

february 17
Here is the Tundra. Maine is beautiful but it is sure windy!!!

In case you were wondering what all the hype is about my weight and why I am wondering. Here is an interesting comparison. I will show you the various stages of my running. It is really interesting.

2010 Here is a picture of me in 2010. This was taken when I weighed about 145 pounds and was just getting back into running. This is the Lake Placid Half Marathon.

121 Here is a picture of me in December of 2013 at the weight of 121.

Here is a picture in October when I was about 117:

Here is a scary picture of me when I was about 112: Run away boys.

We will see. I like Sam Adams and IPA a lot. I am also addicted to Taco Bell and Pizza.