Confession Friday- Run, Bike, and be Merry

“I lived in solitude in the country and noticed how the monotony of a quiet life stimulates the creative mind”


Today was my first day off from work for the summer.   I have been torn because I am supposed to work summer school now and I love doing group ride and having fun being “free.” 
I get to go see people, bike, and just get lost on the bike…it is great.  So today I rode with some people and I felt bad because I left the group I was riding with because they were so fast.  I just did not want to hold them back even if they said it was a no drop ride.  I know they wanted to go fast, but I did want to go with them.  It just seemed like the right thing to do and I had fun riding with the other guys.  I learned that the one guy was a pilot in the Gulf War.  That is pretty cool.  I am not sure what the other guy did but he was happy he was retiring.  It seems like a long ways away and I do not know if I will be fast on the bike when I retire.


I had a great time today and rode about 30 miles and had a speed of 16.5…it was a sweet ride.  I ended it by renting some roval wheels because I do not know if I want to buy a mountain bike or some new wheels for my new bike.  I do not know so if you have any advice let me know.
  I am torn between wheels and a Specialized Fate.  I cannot afford both. 


My running has been going well this week too.  Monday I did not run and Tuesday I went for a bike ride as a time trial and averaged 22.5 miles per hour for 22 minutes.  That was really nice.  Then on Wednesday I went for a run during lunch.  I finished my 5k in 23:10…it was really nice.  Then on Thursday my knee was bothering me so I did 2.5 miles at a pace of 8:04….I did the first mile in 6:07.  It felt nice.  Today I went for my nice ride and tomorrow I am going to go out and ride on my wheels I rented.  I hope they are nice…I do not know if I am ready to get some but I figure it is a good weekend to figure it out.  I am a little sad I do not have extremely exciting plans.  I am getting my hair cut so we will see what I come up with.


Hmmmm confession Friday…this is a toughy.  I am not sure I really feel like sharing my thoughts on the subject tonight.  I guess my confession would be that when I get bummed I tend to sign up for more races.  I do not think this is good because I am running from life.  I signed up for a bunch…I think I need to live life and just stay here.  I am torn about getting wheels, a mountain bike, a cyclo cross bike, or going somewhere for the week.  I know I should not go somewhere but I have this anxiety.  I freak out and want to run from things that bother me.  I went swimming for the first time in forever this week and I freaked out.  I almost drowned when I was little so I get nervous in the water.  I want to swim so bad that I do not think people realize how sad I get when I cannot swim.  It is torture because I truly love swimming…not as much as biking or running…but I do.  I would love to do the Lake Placid Ironman…but the swim is the first part and I would never make it. 


I wish things were different and I could be like almost every athlete out there.  I want to be noticed, which I have said before.  I want to be fast and unstoppable.  I wish it had been so easy in life.  Instead, I sit here on the couch, wondering what it is I am doing in life and where the road will take me.  Here is my updated schedule…



June 29- Catamount half marathon,   Brattleboro, VT

July 10- Deruyter 5k womans distance festival  6:30

July 12- Jamestown Half Marathon- Rhode Island

July 13- Old Shipyard Portland Half Marathon, Maine

July 20- Gillie Girl Triathlon (.5 mile swim, 14 mile bike, 5k run)

July 26- Half Marathon  Grand Canyon PA

July 27- Full Marathon  Grand Canyon PA

August 7- Tromptown Run 5k

August 9 and 10th open

August 23- Loop Around the Lake 15k Fulton NY

August 23- Turning Stone RAces 5k

August 24- Turning Stone Races Half Marathon

September 6- Bird in Hand Half Marathon

September 7-

September 20- Wicked Half MArathon- Salem, MASSACHUSETTS

October 5- Wineglass Full Marathon

October 20-

October 26- Marine Corps Marathon



Tomorrow I am getting my hair cut…I hope it doesn’t look too bad….here is a picture of what it looks like now….


Post- Ironman Relay

“Determination gives you the resolve to keep going in spite of the roadblocks that lay before you.”

It is Wednesday and I have not had a chance to recap some of the race and to share how my week has been going or not going.

So we finished 5th in the relay, but I am not sure if we were 5th or 4th.  I think we did awesome but I wish I could have ran a little faster.  I know I am hard on myself, but I do think I could have done better.  I do not know what to do.


Kim did awesome on the swim. She finished in 27 minutes, which placed her 8th out of the female. I think that is amazing and I hope she can go pro someday.

I do not know how she does it. She could swim for days!!!!!!
I want to drown just looking at this picture!!!!! I cannot believe how crowded it is.

After Kim ran in at a great pace, Aaron took over on the bike. I think he did an awesome job as well!!!!
He finished in 3:03. scaredaaron

I think for someone who hasn’t been racing he did a great job and he was hard on himself too…so was Kim. I think because I am the runner it is natural for me to be hard on myself too…we are all good at our sports, but I have been sucking for a while and need to get out of it.


I thought I had finished in 1:48 (which is still slow for me) but I forgot to start my watch so I finished in 1:50. I was so exhausted that I did not hear them announce our team and say what a great name that was.
I remember the days when I would finish and I would not be tired and my time would be 1:40….I miss those days and I am sad. I need to find it in me to do the one thing well that I love.scared

We are already in talks about next year. I hope we do it so I can redeem myself. We will see…I would like to do one on my own and I have my first open water swim class I am going to tomorrow night at Jamesville beach. I hope I like it and I do not drown.

I feel like an idiot too because I think being alone is why I am not doing well. I know it is speedwork too…but when you are going for so long and you feel this lack of affection in your life, it seems like it is taking a toll. I think I can get over this feeling because I do not know what life has in store for me. I want to be happy and to be with someone but I cannot let it get in the way of my goals. The truth is, I like someone…but I haven’t dated in so long, I just need to relax and see what happens (He already knows I like him).

I want to run in Boston and I want to do well in life but I have to get by this road block. I need to focus and just learn to beeeeeeee happy!!!!!

I have self confidence but lately I have had a lot of people say I look too skinny or that I need more meat on my bones. I look sickly…I eat trust me and I try to over eat too but it makes me sick to my stomach to eat too much. I do not know what to do.

I also got offered summer school. I am not going to lie, I guess a part of me does not want to work….then there is this part that says I can run away and sign up for a million races…I keep running. I do not know why?

Confession: Besides Boston, I want to run a marathon or half on all of the continents. I want to do the Berlin Marathon and the Paris Marathon. I am still bummed about PAris. I will get over it. Berlin is in September but I do not have the ability to go…maybe next year. I want to be a faster runner before I go there. I think it would be amazing….

Ironman relay Syracuse #13 half

I am waiting for a full team picture since our biker had to be roped into a picture! Our team name was “scared hitless.”  Kim rocked the swim in 27 minutes! She is amazing, fast, and a wonderful 20 year old…she liked the pro Australian today. We must find her one!!!!


aaron rocked the bike in 3 hours flat! He said it was, “rough.” By the look on his face, I think it was an understatement!!!!


i started the run and forgot to hit my watch. Once again as team captain I vote myself weakest link.  I had a great time though I went out too fast. I thought my time was 1:48 but realized I didn’t remember the watch. It was 1:50.  I’m disappointed because I wanted to get us 3rd place.  My first mile  was 6:15…. Too fast…. On the downhill I made up some time but I really need to get my speed back. I’m a little scared that I have lost it for good.  I don’t want much in life but I want to be strong.

I need to get ten minutes off my time so it’s going to be ambition, dedication, and a lot of hurt…makes it hard when I’m alone. My back and knees hate me now 😦

 I did have the finish of a lifetime.  For a brief time, I was that girl who sprinted like there was no tomorrow.  I miss it…. I think with all of the people out there and friends cheering me on!!!! That sure helped.  I did not ask so ill leave you nameless but shout out to someone on the run course!!!! You were inspiring and did the whole race…. But still had energy to cheer me on!!!!! You are friggan amazing and rock! Thank you so much.  I owe that awesome finish to you!  


Friday!!!!! Almost to the end….

A Twin Thing

“If you really believe in what you’re doing, work hard, take nothing personally and if something blocks one route, find another. Never give up.”


runThese past few weeks have been really long and stressful for me.  I think most teachers would agree with me that this is a tough time of year.  I am trying to teach, get my classroom packed up, and enjoy the end of the year.  It feels impossible. I am glad that I try to be the relaxed person at work.  I cannot handle too much stress so I take a deep breath and just let it fall into place.  I think it is working.  I am helping the girls pack up their rooms because we are all moving…ummm what fun!


Running!  I did the Chase Corporate Challenge on Tuesday.  I never figured out why it is 3.5 miles instead of the standard 5k. …

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Weekend Detour

It would not be at all strange if history came to the conclusion that the perfection of the bicycle was the greatest incident of the nineteenth century. ~Author Unknown


This weekend was far from going as planned.   On Wednesday, I booked a hotel in New Jersey so that I could run the 1/2 Sauer 1/2 Kraut in Philadelphia at the Pennypack Park. After finishing my race, I would then drive to the Creek Campgrounds in Rosaline, NY.  I would camp overnight and go to the half marathon in New Paltz, NY.  It was a trail half marathon.  It sounded like the perfect weekend for a girl with a lot of hopes and passion for running.  That girl is me, but I wasn’t myself this weekend.  It happens in life and sometimes you just have to stop, breathe, and take the detour.  It was not easy, but I had to do it.  Do I have any regrets?  Sure I wish I could have gone to those amazing places, but it just was not meant to be this weekend.  Maybe if it is in the cards, I can go next year.  I have missed races, but I have never missed two in a row.  I am sure you are wondering why I would throw all of my plans out the window and just stay home.  I wish it were as simple as a minor cold…but it isn’t. 


     I am trying to find a way to sum this up without bringing too much drama.  I am not perfect and I am not the best with communication.  I think that my ex husband ruined it a little for me.  I got to the point where I cannot take the yelling.  I start to shake and hyperventilate.  It is scary.  I do not know how to deal with it.  I went to see someone about it before and I had to work on my breathing.  I am not ashamed of it.  If you are with someone who yells and swears and makes you feel so low in life, it is hard to move on and hear the loud noises.  I think that is why I seem to do well at work because I do not yell and I can get the children to listen to me.  That is not easy in first grade.


     I have a student teacher and I have had one the past three years.  I am not a person who likes to lead and I try to be laid back and do the best job I can.  I do not know if my student teacher was unhappy.  I do not know all of the details.  I just know that I had some trouble finding her and she was going to get observed on Wednesday so I had to help her out.  She was going to be teaching content and her small ESL group.  I was excited for her to get done with her two observations and move along.  She is done this coming Thursday.  She wanted to teach content and the other teacher did not want her to because of SLOs.  My student teacher talked her into it.  I thought she was going to be with the student teacher and I was supposed to watch the other teacher’s class.  Everything was fine.  I was with the kids watching a movie and my student teacher was in the room teaching content.  Another teacher stuck his head in and didn’t say anything.  Come to find out my student teacher was alone and I misunderstood.  The teacher had taken some kids to do SLOs and my student teacher was teaching and I didn’t think this was a bad thing.  She is getting her graduate degree and is a certified teacher already.  She is also a substitute in the district and has been at some pretty bad schools.  In a way, I was proud of her for taking on this role.  I guess the one teacher yelled at the other teacher for leaving her alone.  I felt bad about the whole situation and it really was a misunderstanding.


My student teacher was not happy because the kids were terrible.  I told her I wish that she would have let me know or the other teacher.  I apologized because this really was just a mix up but I was just in the next room.  She should have brought the kids or sent someone with a note.  I was a little mad at the other teacher, but I could see what she was doing and slos are very important.  I decided to talk to the teacher after school and we had a good talk.  We wanted to talk to the student teacher and just make sure if she ever has a problem she comes to us about it.  We are here to help her and help her succeed. 


I gave her supervisor a heads up that we just wanted to talk to her to make sure she knows she can come to me and that I am here to help her.  She accused the teacher of attacking her and I did not think that was fair.  My co teacher can be a little uptight, but she is a great gale and she meant well.  My student teacher was upset.  Later, I went to the ESL room and she must have told them or they were psychic because the teachers knew we had talked to her.  At first they did not say anything.  Then the one girl started saying I was horrible and she is sad because I am giving this girl a horrible student teaching experience.  I should not have had this meeting with her because she was getting observed.  I felt like a pile of shit.  If you knew me, you would know I was just reaching out to the poor girl to make sure she was alright and that she had a good experience.  I was not out to sabotage her or make her feel horrible.  I even told her she could come in late in the morning as long as she had her work done.  The other girl didn’t say much just that the timing could have been better.  I agree.  I know that my co teacher was persistent about talking to her.  I confessed that I did not want a student teacher because of the time of year.  So the girl asked why I had one then.  It is hard to find placements and it was so hard one teacher has two student teachers.  It is not easy.  I have so much testing from April until June that it is a circus.  The kids are also excited and ready for summer.  I feel bad for the student teacher.  It isn’t that I do not want one.  In fact, I do not get anything for it.  I do not think people realize that.  I had a bunch of practicum students this year too and was trying to convince them all to become ESL teachers.


Moving on, I had another talk with my student teacher and told her that I was sorry she felt this way.  I think she was more afraid of the other teacher.  The ESL teacher said she wished that I would have protected her from the teacher.  I guess I did not see her as threatening but maybe because I have known her she didn’t see the same person.  My co teacher has helped me a lot this year and she has a tough class.  She was also my student teacher last year and I helped get her a job.  I promise I try to be a good person.


I thought this was all water under the bridge.  I wanted to move on.  We had only eleven days left of school.  We were going to the zoo the next day and we were all excited.  The girls even had their parents and siblings coming in to help with the trip.


At about 9:30 I got a text saying that we were having a meeting and that I needed to be there.  I asked what it was about and they did not say.  I assumed the zoo but I have a confession.  I have this most bizarre intuition that tells me things.  I was feeling it.  Every inch of me felt like I should not go to this meeting.  I did not want to skip the meeting, but I just had that feeling.  I inquired about it and wanted to know.  No one knew.  I invited the teacher from upstairs because she is part of first grade too.  Iwanted to belate in every way but I was there on time.  My body was nervous.  I was fidgeting when I walked into the room with the teachers.  There were two ESL teachers, all of grade one and myself…well there was one teacher missing because she was late. 


The male teacher said he would get to the zoo, but first a few things.  I just knew it.  He ripped into my co teacher and me about the student teacher.  We both told him we talked about it already and we put it behind us.  That this happened yesterday and we apologized to the girl and I told the supervisor.  The supervisor was happy she was alone because she is already going to be teaching fourth grade and she needs the experience of being left alone…no matter what.  The male teacher said we should have known better…etc…that if something were to have happened….I thought my co teacher did a great job of handling it.  He tried to talk about the other co teacher but she had nothing to do with it.  The ESL teacher just mentioned that the timing could have been better and we again apologized.  Everything was honestly bad timing. 


The teacher said he felt left out all year.  He talked about the 93q event where they came and read.  I felt bad because I was only supposed to pick one class.  I talked my principal into two…again, I won’t have them come in and read if I know it is a big problem but this happened in October.  Then he went on to talk about me servicing his kids and being late.  I tried to tell him that I have hall duty until 9 and sometimes I have to go to the bathroom or stop by my room.  Then it is 9:05.  He is right.  He tried saying I leave at 9:30 but I promise that is only if I need to go to the bathroom or to the other girl’s class.  The truth is he is a good teacher and he is fine on his own and his ESL students are amazing and so smart.  I just support and hand out papers.  Honestly, I feel like I co teach more in the one teacher’s classroom out of all of them.  It is hard to be in so many rooms.  I felt bad though because I had actually talked to the reading teacher before the meeting about how I had so much testing it felt like I was never in his room.  He went on to badger me but no one defended me.  I helped out the girls when they were observed.  I helped them out with so much, especially the girl who had been my student teacher.  It was interesting that he felt left out because I did too.  I had an argument with the one girl earlier about how when I was testing no one told me about the Easter Egg Hunt.  I am in my room doing paper work sometimes or getting ready for the testing.  No one told me.  Also, I have subbed a lot this year and helped out.  I just wish he hadn’t said that if we went to administration things would get ugly.  That is not what I want to happen because I actually liked working with this person.  Perhaps the worst thing I did was to say I could not take it and walk out of the room crying. 


I could not come back.  I had the worst headache and I felt bad all around.  I felt bad he yelled at the girls and me.  I felt bad for him for feeling left out.  I felt bad because no one stuck up for me. It gets worse.  I could not go on the field trip because I was too upset.  I am not strong sometimes.  I get a text saying conversations need to be had and I need to listen to what these girls have to say.  I need to talk to the girls and Jesus.  I do not understand.  It is like I feel attacked.  Not only do I feel attacked but I feel defensive because I too will have to bring up stuff that bothers me.  I will have to mention that there are things that did not go well for me.  I do not want to do that and why is this all being lashed out at the end of the school year?  The funny thing is I could just leave it all and move on because I want to and have already asked to go up to third grade.  I do not know why I just leave it and move on but I felt like these were my girls and I am afraid to ask what is wrong.  I am hoping that it is the feeling that if I have a problem I just need to confront them.  I need to tell them but I am not someone who wants to cause drama. 


So I am faced with this and could use your help.  I did not want to involve administration but I cannot take yelling.  If there is an administrator there then nothing gets twisted.  She is the neutral party.  She only got involved because she heard me crying.  This school is my home and I want to stay.  I love teaching there and hope that these people realize I am a good person.  So I am having a meeting with the male teacher and administration because I cannot take the yelling.  I know he will not be happy but I am hoping he hears what I have to say and realizes I actually liked working with him and felt left out too.  I am meeting with administration and the two ESL teachers to clear up the student teacher situation once and for all and tell them that my co teacher is not as scary as people make her out to be.  Here is what I need help with.  The two co teachers want to meet without administration.  I did not want to do this because I want to not be attacked and I want to have a good rest of the school year.  Like I said, I am hoping it is about communication and they will not lash out at me but I am wondering if meeting with two girls alone is a good idea?  They promised they would not be mean and still want to be my friend and don’t hate me…but I do not know if I can take this….


I was beyond depressed this weekend.  I had to miss work Friday and just be by myself…safe.  I also had the worst migraine from the yelling and crying.  I was so sick.  I know hiding is not the best way to solve problems in life and I need to work on it.  I am a very, extremely sensitive person and perhaps that is why I am single.  I have felt lonely most of my life and I am not good with loud voices and do not think a man should yell at a woman.  I am so old fashioned.  I try to live by example and want everyone to get along.  I am such a sucker.  I want to believe I can make it through these last nine days of work in one piece and that life will go on and they will not hate me.  I should not care so much what they think but I try to be a good person in life.


So I went to the store and got my new bike.  I needed it and I decided it was time to take a detour.  I did not think I cared much for driving to Philly and doing a half marathon when I just bought a new road bike.  I took it for a nice ride on Saturday. 
I went 31 miles and it was wonderful.  I have to admit my shoulder hurt and my foot went numb.  I have to have that fixed. 
specialbike2Then I was going to go to New Paltz for Sunday and camp.  I decided to detour that.  I made grilled cheese and tomato soup.  I watched North and South, which is a completely depressing and happy movie in Britain.  I loved it and then I went to bed.  I considered running an 8k but I decided to sleep in and just be refreshed. 


Today, I went to my relative’s house in Oneida and went for a 40 mile bike ride.  I went to Munnsville, where there is a cemetery hidden for our family.  My dad’s side had lived there since the 1700’s.  On a side note a teacher I used to work with, her ancestor was my ancestor’s neighbor.  Small world isn’t it?  Then I went to Morrisville.  My mom worked there for 11 years with my dad’s cousin and relative.  They set my parents up on a blind date at the Captains Lounge or Quarters..Don’t remember the last name.  My dad proposed two weeks later and they have been married for 36 years.  Crazy stuff…It is Father’s Day so I figured I would live down his memory lane a little bit and then I called him to tell him about it.  He thought I was nuts for biking to Morrisville because of the crazy hill there. 


On my way home, I decided to get lost in one of my favorite places.  I love the Erie Canal and it is nice to go to it in Chittenango because no one goes there.  I saw a lot of people on horses and wanted to share a picture, but did not want to spook the horses.  I also saw a lot of huge fish.  The one fish was so big it jumped out of the water and tried to get a fly.  I thought it was the size of a salmon.  I wonder what kind of fish are in there besides sunfish and trout.  Any idea? 
specialrun I saw young couples, boys fishing, people whispering, a person walking a dog.  I love the canal.  It makes me forget about work and often wonder if I need to do something else in life. I am tired of being normal. I want to be different and do something where I make a difference. I do not feel like I do at work, except to the kids. It is nice to see so many people enjoying the outdoors. 


What is your ideal date or what was the best date you ever went on?


IF I could spend time with a guy, I would love to go for a walk along the canal.  I know I talk a lot but not there.  It is my solitude…my serenity.  I would love to just get lost there and then sit under the stars and listen to the animals at night.  It sounds absolutely perfect.  I think I will think about this tomorrow. 




Confession Friday- IS it summer yet?

“If we are too busy thinking about yesterday and wishing for tomorrow to get here, then we are missing out on today.” 





Today I did not go to work. I just couldn’t. I love my job and I love the students I work with. I look forward to working there but I do not know if I can do it much longer. I want to be surrounded by happiness and it just isn’t happening. I want to be full of live and smile every day at work. There is just so much of that not going on that I want to scream and tell everyone to just be happy. Life is too short.

I went for a run today. I have been addicted to the canal all week and I saw a turtle today.

I was so excited to take the turtle’s picture that I lost my keys and did not realize it. Luckily, I was able to get the spare out of my car but if I do it again I am screwed. This is my last key. RIP keys.

I think that I have run 23 miles this week and I was supposed to run a half marathon tomorrow but I do not want to drive to Philly tonight. This will just have to be the race that wasn’t. I think that the older I get the more I do not want to travel. I just want to go about life and do my job and be a fly on the wall.

I was so excited to get my new bike tonight. It was nice to learn about how much bad posture I have ha ha ha. In any case, I think I would like to get lost with my bike and have a good time. Again, life is too short and I love being outside and I want to surround myself with good people. There are a lot of good people out there.

I hope next year I can do this race. I hope for many good things to come and I know we all have our moments in life that suck. I am hoping tomorrow will be better and today turned out to be a great day…I will get to bike and run this weekend and continue to count down to summer. I do not think I want to work.

Off The Road…Erie Canal

“I could never resist the call of the trail.”  Buffalo Bill


Today it was raining and I did not know if I felt like running outside, but something inside of me was thrilled. I have been going through bike withdrawal and I get my new specialized Amira on Friday. I am so excited, but I have been missing cycling. I am almost there. I got out of work and it started to rain harder and harder the more I drove. I was disgusted. Then I realized this was a blessing because it meant I would not get too hot. I did not feel well at work today and had a huge headache. I think it is just stress and all of the end of year garbage. I teach full time and I am counting down the days. Summer is so close I can smell it.

I drove to Fayetteville and parked at my old spot. This is where my adventure began. Do you ever get that feeling when you run that you feel amazing? Do you ever feel lost in the run? No matter how far you go and how you feel, it is like the watch stops and you are lost in the moment! That was me today and it was absolutely beautiful.

My goal was to do 12-18 miles but I did not bring water or shot bloks with me. I knew the rain would help so I just decided to go. Not long after I started, I ended up stopping my watch just shy of a mile because I came upon a little creature: canalturtle I do not know why but when I go to the canal, I sometimes see a lot of snapping turtles. They are cute, but I would not want one as a pet. The poor guy bolted for the canal. I felt bad I scared him.

I continued on with my run and ran into the heron. I love herons. They remind me of my grandfather. Whenever we spotted herons he would want to see them. He would actually get in his car and look for them. I once ran a half marathon on the Delaware Canal because the medal had a heron on it. It makes me think he is watching me. canalheron2 I wanted to take a picture of the heron taking off, but it was rainy and he was fast!!!!

As I was running, I got to the road I had to cross. I could not believe what I saw. There was a car on fire! I was tempted to take a picture for you to see, but I did not want to be that jerk who takes photos of something that is not such a good thing. So I kept running. It was the right thing to do.

canal map


Here is the map of where I ran. Altogether, I ended up running 9.4 miles. I had a great time. I turned it into two different runs. One was 4.8 miles and one was going to be about 4.5 miles, but my phone ran out of battery and I had to fiddle with it.



I was having a great time and came across six snapping turtles when my phone was about to die. I managed to get some model poses from one of the turtles and then my phone blacked out. It figures because it was crazy!!!!!!! I have never seen so many turtles storming the canal path!!!!! They were so big too!


So I may not have reached my goal today, but I feel pretty amazing. I loved seeing all of the animals out on the canal and it makes me remember just how much I prefer the canal. The only downfall is there are no hills. I love the canal and the nice path it lends. I love seeing all of the runners and we do not know each other but we become “regulars.” I even got to run for a few seconds (I stress seconds) with Fred Joselyn…Do you know who that is? Probably not because he is so fast that you missed him. He is really fast and he even ran the Olympic marathon trials. I cannot remember how well he did but I know he did great. I do not know him, but I know the face. It was nice that he said, “hello.” I guess since I do not know him I figured he was antisocial when it came to running. It was nice to prove me wrong.

So I have a confession. When I was younger I wanted to be a photographer for National Geographic. I know I will never be able to do that but it is fun to get out there and capture animals and share them on Facebook and my strava account with people. I love wildlife and hope that people take good care of the animals out there. It was a gift to see all of these animals today. I felt like it was a pure treat for me and I cannot wait to go back. I almost went back after my phone charged. I feel so good that I cannot believe I ran today. I guess I should run faster then!!!!!

I am a small town girl and I love the outdoors. I am definitely a tomboy. I love hanging with the boys, camping, and just loving every bit of nature there is out there. We live in a beautiful place and I want to get more into trail racing. This weekend I have two half marathons that take place a lot on trails. Whenever I run and go on a trail, my mind is at peace. When I was going through a lot of stress and difficult times in my marriage, I ran the canal. I thought about it today. It really is the best place to get lost and forget about anything and everything bad in this world. I love the trails and the lack of cars. It is nice to see people having fun on bikes or couples going on romantic walks. I wish life was like this every day. We become too dependent on technology. I know I track my runs on my watch, but I am trying really hard to become less focused on technology.

I could get lost on the trails every day. No matter how much I wish I had someone to run with me or be at my side…or to make me dinner when I get home from a long day, the canal makes me just beyond happy.

I took Lilly on it the other day. We jogged to the beach. I hope she loves to jog with me when she gets older. canalnap

Here is a cute picture of her at the beach: canalbeachbaby

Last but not least:
Here is a recipe for Non Dairy Blueberry Chocolate Cake….yum yummmmmm

1 cup water
1.5 cups flour
1 cup sugar
1 pint blueberries
4 tablespoons of cocoa
1 dash of baking soda

heat the oven to 350 and bake for 32 minutes

It is amazing…I have not tried raspberries, but I think that sounds good too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!