“I lived in solitude in the country and noticed how the monotony of a quiet life stimulates the creative mind”
Today was my first day off from work for the summer. I have been torn because I am supposed to work summer school now and I love doing group ride and having fun being “free.”
I get to go see people, bike, and just get lost on the bike…it is great. So today I rode with some people and I felt bad because I left the group I was riding with because they were so fast. I just did not want to hold them back even if they said it was a no drop ride. I know they wanted to go fast, but I did want to go with them. It just seemed like the right thing to do and I had fun riding with the other guys. I learned that the one guy was a pilot in the Gulf War. That is pretty cool. I am not sure what the other guy did but he was happy he was retiring. It seems like a long ways away and I do not know if I will be fast on the bike when I retire.
I had a great time today and rode about 30 miles and had a speed of 16.5…it was a sweet ride. I ended it by renting some roval wheels because I do not know if I want to buy a mountain bike or some new wheels for my new bike. I do not know so if you have any advice let me know.
I am torn between wheels and a Specialized Fate. I cannot afford both.
My running has been going well this week too. Monday I did not run and Tuesday I went for a bike ride as a time trial and averaged 22.5 miles per hour for 22 minutes. That was really nice. Then on Wednesday I went for a run during lunch. I finished my 5k in 23:10…it was really nice. Then on Thursday my knee was bothering me so I did 2.5 miles at a pace of 8:04….I did the first mile in 6:07. It felt nice. Today I went for my nice ride and tomorrow I am going to go out and ride on my wheels I rented. I hope they are nice…I do not know if I am ready to get some but I figure it is a good weekend to figure it out. I am a little sad I do not have extremely exciting plans. I am getting my hair cut so we will see what I come up with.
Hmmmm confession Friday…this is a toughy. I am not sure I really feel like sharing my thoughts on the subject tonight. I guess my confession would be that when I get bummed I tend to sign up for more races. I do not think this is good because I am running from life. I signed up for a bunch…I think I need to live life and just stay here. I am torn about getting wheels, a mountain bike, a cyclo cross bike, or going somewhere for the week. I know I should not go somewhere but I have this anxiety. I freak out and want to run from things that bother me. I went swimming for the first time in forever this week and I freaked out. I almost drowned when I was little so I get nervous in the water. I want to swim so bad that I do not think people realize how sad I get when I cannot swim. It is torture because I truly love swimming…not as much as biking or running…but I do. I would love to do the Lake Placid Ironman…but the swim is the first part and I would never make it.
I wish things were different and I could be like almost every athlete out there. I want to be noticed, which I have said before. I want to be fast and unstoppable. I wish it had been so easy in life. Instead, I sit here on the couch, wondering what it is I am doing in life and where the road will take me. Here is my updated schedule…
June 29- Catamount half marathon, Brattleboro, VT
July 10- Deruyter 5k womans distance festival 6:30
July 12- Jamestown Half Marathon- Rhode Island
July 13- Old Shipyard Portland Half Marathon, Maine
July 20- Gillie Girl Triathlon (.5 mile swim, 14 mile bike, 5k run)
July 26- Half Marathon Grand Canyon PA
July 27- Full Marathon Grand Canyon PA
August 7- Tromptown Run 5k
August 9 and 10th open
August 23- Loop Around the Lake 15k Fulton NY
August 23- Turning Stone RAces 5k
August 24- Turning Stone Races Half Marathon
September 6- Bird in Hand Half Marathon
September 20- Wicked Half MArathon- Salem, MASSACHUSETTS
October 5- Wineglass Full Marathon
October 26- Marine Corps Marathon