La chose importante est de tendre vers un objectif qui n’est pas immédiatement visible. Cet objectif n’est pas la préoccupation de l’esprit, mais de l’esprit. ~ Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
The important thing is to strive towards a goal which is not immediately visible. That goal is not the concern of the mind, but of the spirit. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
Excuse me. It has been a while since I have written in French. I figured this would be something different to spice things up.
Excusez-moi. Il a été un moment depuis que j’ai écrite en français. J’ai pensée que ce serait quelque chose de différent pour pimenter les choses.
I haven’t been confessing much, so I figured I would mention that I studied French for a while. I lived in France for a little while too. I miss it. Sometimes I feel like I am just lost here. I remember the days where I would walk to school and pass over the Loire. It was amazing. I even had a bike. It was a piece of crap, but it was fun to say I biked in France.
I have been off from work all week and I have been sorting out things and consolidating so I can get ready for the school year. I also have to decide by next Sunday if I am moving. It is a hard decision for me to make because I am a single mom and it is a lot of work for me. Moving sounds simple, but my knee has been bothering me and I have moved a lot. Do you ever feel like you just don’t belong? That is how I feel a lot. I hate to admit it but I took those stupid quizzes on facebook to see where I belong and imaginez-vous???? I belong in a different century. Quel Surprise! C’est vrai de temps en temps. Je pense que quelqu’un tres vieux. I think like someone old-fashion…I am not sure how to translate that right so I did the best I could.
Okay moving on….I don’t really know why I am sharing all of this with you but I guess my point is that my knee has been keeping me from running so I have had a lot of time to think….c’est une catastrophe! I should never think it is bad for the mind. Ce n’ai pas bonne pour la santé. It is not good for the soul. I would like to tell you that I am happy…that I am strong…but not today. I think that it is normal to be fable…weak…maybe it is more worrisome to be strong all of the time…being weak shows I am only human.
The truth is…this sucks…I hate hate hate…not being able to run. Running is the love of my life besides Lilly. It is driving me crazy that I cannot do the one thing I love to do the most when Lilly is not here. I cannot bike either because it is raining so much. It is making me crazy! I don’t really care for television and I am not a huge fan of the computer….but I guess I have loved running for so long it is hard to find something else to do. On top of that I am on vacation from work and I cannot even plan. I do not know where I am teaching and what I am teaching….
I miss Lilly. I miss running….you have no idea how stressful work is right now!!!!!! When I am at the starting line…I think about all of the things that make me angry. I am angry right now….because it sucks to be injured, alone, and uncertain of the future on many levels. I think I belong in a different century because I don’t do well with this modern day stress. I am too old fashion on many levels….
I wish I could go back and change from being a teacher to being an ambassador…I wonder why I was so afraid to take that leap…with languages under my belt, I think I could have been good…but now I will never know….
I haven’t ran this week…not sure if I can…I have biked 33 miles and it was great…but I need my running. I think I will not make Boston and I am not sure I will be able to get past that…It is hard to have such a big goal and have it shattered…it would be easier if there were someone there to pick me up and say it will be alright…but I am looking down at Lilly…so I need to be strong….
So What Would You Do?????????? Try to Go For Boston or hope it is there for the taking next year?