Delaware canal half marathon #56 (I think)

“Running has never failed to give me great end results and that’s why I keep coming back for more.” Acevedo

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This weekend I went back to the Delaware Canal in Pennsylvania. I ran the half marathon in bucks county! It had everything a half marathon should have….but boyyyyy did I freeze!

I had trouble sleeping because someone knocked on my door at 2 in the morning! Then I felt sick to my stomach because of the Parmesan fries I ate the night before.  However, a four hour drive, an expensive meal, and a huge late race fee made it seem worth the cold!

last week was Veteran’s Day. I had to work Monday and didn’t see any races on Tuesday worth the drive…but my grandfather loved random drives and herons…so it was a great way to honor him! I was going to eat his favorite Arby’s too…but they seemed non existent in Pennsylvania…. So I suffered without it..

Last year I ran this same race after being dumped! I’m much stronger now and not the same girl I was then.  I don’t know why but I felt like he was there with me… I have never felt that way and maybe you think I’m crazy, but it helped to think he was there in spirit. He died my junior year in college and he was the funniest old man…I’d like to think I get my sense of humor from him…he would walk around all of the time with a hat that said, “where is my damn senior citizen’s discount?” He would save salt, pepper, and ketchup packets till they came out your ears!  He would take us to Arby’s for the 2/1 beef and cheddar specials…oh those were the days….I know he wasn’t perfect and the war messed with him as it did most vets….but my memories of him were pretty fantastic! He stormed Normandy during WW2….I went there and I can only imagine!  So thirteen miles seemed like a small tribute in comparison to the things he had done.

I started at 10:15, which meant a late start.  The field was wet and I had to try to dry my shoes and change my socks.  For this, I paid dearly.  I ran the first mile in 7:38….I was doing good until I could no longer feel my right foot and barely anything In my left foot…I tripped on the path and my ankle still hurts today…with my bursitis and piriformis, the trail just killed me…I won’t lie to you. I think I cried my way through the rest of it…but us runners, we look out for each other. I stopped for two seconds and a guy offered me fuel. I graciously declined, though I had forgotten my fuel….classic flaw…then a guy came up and it was a familiar face…when I ran the “Rock the Canyon” series in Wellsboro, Pa, I met a group of crazy runners.  They invited me to dinner….Monica, Jennifer, Sanchez, Edward, and Julien….well here I am dying at mile 12 and Sanchez saves the day…thank god!!!!thank you  Sanchez!! You helped me so much…I finished in 1:58 but it wasn’t easy. There were no expectations at the race except to honor my grandfather and have a good time…I knew I could not race this like I wanted to, but I am proud I finished…a lot of people would love my time…I was tempted not to go but my y buddies (Brett and wisam) told me to go and have fun…it was a tough race, my foot hurt, but I finished….it was nice to see the crew from “Rock the Canyon!”  It just tells you that I run a lot in Pennsylvania if I keep running into the same people haha.

There is a challenge called “the Bucky.”  If you stay Sunday you can run the full marathon..no thank you! Rock the Canyon did me in! I loved the race but I was so dehydrated and a full and a half the same weekend are so hard on the body physically and mentally!

What is next??? I’m tempted to run the turkey trot in bville, ny… I’m supposed to run “the red nose 5k” In little falls on December 13…. But I’m sad to report my competition had to back out. I doubt I will want to make the drive.  I am signed up for NYC Runs Frozen Bonsai on December 14….I was hoping for some company, but that did not pan out either…bad Iuck I guess…I need to book a train ticket but I’m holding off to make sure ill be able to run…and I confess I’m scared shitless to go to NYC alone…I’m not a kid and I am pretty badass, but I’m still a petite girl!!!! Camouflage???

On another note, I was recognized by a volee oiselle runner and we took some selfies!!!! The guy at the finish line asked me all about being a oiselle and I apologize because I was rather out of it!!!  What a long day…today I did a small recovery run of 4 miles at an 8:28 pace…that tells you something about trail verses pavement!!!!

I did the worst thing you could do… I went grocery shopping after!!!!i persevered and I got Lilly some Christmas presents this weekend!  I get to hang out with her this weekend coming up! I can’t wait….

My last thought:

This probably sounds silly and I already shared on Facebook! I want to have a wonderful Christmas with Lilly! She deserves the best…for me I want one thing…my ex husband didn’t dance. We had no dancing at our wedding and I had my slow dance last year…I didn’t even get invited to the wedding but my now ex needed a dd…I came to pick him up and we slow danced…it feels like I have a lot of bad luck and For once in my life I want good luck…you are never too old to make a wish or ask for silly things and I want my slow dance and I want it done right…so that is my silly Christmas wish. My ex husband gave me an old sweater and a used candle… I only ever wanted attention….anyhow I don’t care if this sounds dumb to anyone. I don’t need money or fancy things…but I think memories are priceless!!!! I’ve grown up a lot these past few years…I’d really enjoy not being single and having to put all my race stuff in the back seat of the car for once or a reason not to do karaoke all the way to the south to stay awake!!!! But lilly should be proud of me and I hope I can be a positive role model for the rest of my life! It’s only you who can make your dreams come true and live the life of your dreams…so, what are you waiting for?

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We Never Go Out of Style

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“We live in a wonderful world that is full of beauty, charm, and adventure.  There is no end to the adventures that we can have if only we seek them with our eyes open.” – Jawaharlal Nehru

My new favorite song is “Style,” by Taylor Swift.  I love this song.  I like “Blank Space” too.  I want to come back fierce this season…so this is why I tagged the terrible selfie!!!! I am getting nervous!!!!  I am traveling to Philly to race in the Delaware Canal Half Marathon tomorrow.  I did this race last year and it is for my grandfather.  I received a heron medal.  The race reminds me of him! I am not good with people and after being dumped last year it put a damper on my life in every aspect.  I was so depressed.  I can’t say that I am doing much better lately!  The thrill of racing is amazing but I’d love to give the knee a break and have fun with people…. I am nervous because it is a blizzard outside right now!!!  I am glad I invested in a four wheel drive car!!!!!!!!!  On another note, I signed up for more races today and bought some new oiselle items!!!! Can’t wait to try out my new arm warmers and my new jacket!

So here is my latest schedule:

I have been busy setting it up today and trying to avoid life.  I know I cannot avoid life forever, but I need to just stop being anti social and get back to living…so here is my crazy, awesome, fantastic…totally overwhelming start of a race schedule:

2014:

November 15- Delaware Canal Half Marathon (Washington Crossing, PA)

November 27- Atlanta Half Marathon (Atlanta, GA)

December 13- Red Nose Reindeer 5k (Little Falls, NY)

December 14- NYC Runs Frozen Bonsai (Central Park- NYC)

2015

January 10- Winter Warrior Half Marathon (Rochester, NY)

February 22- Lake Effect Half Marathon (Syracuse, NY)

March 7- Chambersburg Half Marathon (Chambersburg, PA)

March 8- The Ocean’s Run Half Marathon (South Kingston, Rhode Island)

March 21- ???  Sleepy Hollow Half Marathon (Sleepy Hollow, NY)

March 22- Syracuse Half Marathon (Syracuse, NY)

April- TBD

May 3- (Would love to run Pittsburgh Full Marathon)

May 4-

May 16- St. Michael’s Running Festival Half Marathon (St. Michael’s, MD)

May 17- Historic Marine Corps Half Marathon (Fredericksburg, VA)

May 31 Weekend – ????

June

July

August

September – Bird in Hand Half Marathon

Gulf Beach Half Marathon – Connecticut

October- Marine Corps Marathon

What is Next?- I’ve Got the Race Shakes!

•”In running, it doesn’t matter whether you come in first, in the middle of the pack, or last. You can say, ‘I have finished.’ There is a lot of satisfaction in that.”
-Fred Lebow, New York City Marathon co-founder

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It has been more than a month since my last race.  I have not been running much and I cannot remember the last time I went out for a bike ride.  I have been busy moving.  I am all moved in and I am busy at work.  I can’t get over that amazing feeling when you finish a race. There is nothing like it!  I want that feeling again.  It is so different than going out for a long run or a small tempo.

I wish I could say life is wonderful and I am completely happy!  I have a huge amount of confidence and I love the kids I teach…but there are certain aspects in life I am not feeling great about.   I hate that the holidays are coming and I do not have Lilly for Thanksgiving.  I am supposed to go run a half marathon in Atlanta.  I am excited about it but I am not supposed to run.  I have bursitis in my knee and piriformis syndrome. However, I wish there was something making me not want to run away and do this race.  I have been single for a year and I am ready to not feel so alone…but I guess it is good to just be happy and live life to the fullest…so what is a girl to do?  Try to get better even though I have been dealing with this crap for four months and the pain is just as bad?  Orrrrrr go run my face off?

I don’t know….so I have a little surprise in store for my readers!!!!!!!  I hope you read about what is coming!

Here is my tentative race schedule for next year:

February 22- Lake Effect Half Marathon (Syracuse, NY)

March 7- Chambersburg Half Marathon (Chambersburg, Pennsylvania)  ?????

March 8- The Ocean’s Run Half Marathon- (South Kingston, Rhode Island)

March 21- Sleepy Hollow Half Marathon – (Sleepy Hollow, NY)  ?????

March 22- Syracuse Half Marathon- (syracuse, NY)

April?

May 3- Mountain Goat?

May 16- St. Michael’s Running Festival Half Marathon- (St. Michael’s,  Maryland)

Marine Corps Half Marathon May 17

May 24 – Buffalo Full Marathon –  (Buffalo, NY)

June

July

August

September-

September 5- Bird in Hand Half Marathon- (Bird in Hand, PA)

September 13- Gulf Beach (Connecticut)

October 26- Marine Corps Marathon

I need another full marathon…I want my Boston Qualifier!!!!!!!!!  I hope I can wear my oiselle singlet in Boston!!!!

A Wish

I’m just now realizing it has been a year…a long year of being single. image It flew by and I made it. It is refreshing not to imagewonder if he is going to break up with me right befoimagere Thanksgiving or text me that it is over. I thought I loved him…but I’m happy this year and being alone I  have learned so many things and become such a strong person.

“A true love knows no distance…” We never really got over that… It was always about him, his money, his jobs, and his dog… There really wasn’t an I in the us….

So I finally came to grips with this…. It never was love… It was a year and a half…. Perhaps a complete waste. I was depressed and not knowing what to do with myself.

This has a lot to do with running….bare with me.

So I turned to my running and met my goal of 18 half marathons and reaching 50…. I’m now at 56 half marathons and I have done 25 since I made that resolution….perhaps my knee wouldn’t be so bad and perhaps it would. I had an amazing time and I will always be grateful….I want to explore the amazing, beautiful country and keep meeting new people. I’ve always been  that shy, awkward girl…

. But being in Oiselle and getting my photo in a national ad!!!! Wow!  It is amazing what happens when you believe in yourself!

my other goal this year was to fall in love with myself… Someone once said you cannot give your heart to someone until after you love yourself…it’s true! You need to be the best person you can be!

So I must confess to you that I am 34 years old and I have never ever been kissed at midnight on New Years Eve…I am far from 12 but every girl has that cheesy wish! My wish might not come true this year but I hope there is a chance.  I love being independent but with a bad knee, it sucks.  I can barely get my laundry into my apartment on the third floor!  I see all these cute couples walking on the parkway.  I am such a stubborn, anti social, but I know what I want….and it is not to be old and alone.  I want that person next to me who always whispers good night…. I want to finally fall in love with a guy!  I enjoy traveling and seeing so many places…but I’ve always wondered what it would be like to go with someone…and I believe….somewhere…sometime….he will find me….this is such a silly post….but the doctor told me running is no longer good for me and I really suck at knitting…..I go for an MRI tomorrow…I’m scared and wish I weren’t alone…. Wish me luck 🙂