2015 Racing

“Run fast take chances.”

imageThis has been such a roller coaster of a year…but I cannot say it was a bad one! With a little heart and determination, the sky is the limit! I still can’t get over all of the amazing people who have come into my life this year.

It is no surprise … Well maybe a little to some of you…. That I am shy and  come across as anti social.
image This year was about stepping outside of my comfort zone and giving my all to running and Lilly! I also needed to fall in love with myself.

I did 28 half marathons this year… I nearly lost count! I don’t think I can say I achieved confidence 100% but I’m getting there…

I didn’t qualify for Boston, but I am determined to gain entry into the 2016 marathon. I’m working hard and running with the Syracuse y runners…

My coach is Kevin Collins and I know I will get to Boston under his training program because I will otherwise drive him nuts!

Boom clap!

so here is my tentative schedule-

February 14- Martha’s Vineyard 20 miler

February 22- lake effect half marathon

march 7- tipp hill shamrock run

march 8- the oceans run Rhode Island

march 22- Syracuse half marathon

April 5- airport challenge (1mile and half marathon) brunswick Maine

May 3- marathon out of state

may 16- st. Michaels half marathon mMaryland

MAy 17- marine corps half marathon vIrginia

august 23- rekyajavik marathon

September 12 bird in hand

September gulf beach ct

October 18- mount desert island marathon?

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“Life is too short! Stay awake for it!”

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If you close your eyes and try to go back over this year…well for me I see running and Lilly. I’ve been all over the world but I focused on seeing more of the United States. I visited new places this year including Rhode Island and various cities I never knew about. There are so many amazing places out there and I hope to get out west more!!!!

I guess it started with a bridge I run across.. I saw such a beautiful view and I get here a few times a year at my parents’ house In Maine. I realized I need to suck it up. I think instead of feeling sorry for yourself or depressed, you have to act on it! So I signed up for some races and started a blog… So here are some photos from my year…. The good the bad and the sweaty! It isn’t about what place I came in or that awful date I won with the 93q bachelor!!! Hahaha that was bad! It is about just living in the moment and all of the experiences you have to sharE and remember! Thank you to everyone I have met this year!!! I can’t wait to see what next year brings…. I am scared and excited!

i did not qualify for Boston but I did make it past 50 half marathons….I’m at 58 I think….I also ran my third marathon. I need to find one outside Pennsylvania that is flat! I also paced in a race and saw more animals that I can remember…including a baby moose and a lynx!

I also became a oiselle flock member and a y runner!!!

as for my slow dance….I would love for that to happen and be worth it but I have to accept that maybe it isn’t meant to happen this year…. It’s a little disappointing if it doesn’t..

New York City Or Bust!

“You have to live the life of your dreams.”

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I know I have used this quote before but I am trying hard to finally take it to heart.  I honestly thought this would be an amazing year.  When I got dumped back in 2013, I made a vow to make this the best year I could.  I tried so hard…I guess that sometimes you just have no control over life.  You just have to go with the flow and live in the moment…When I signed up for a bunch of races this year, I had an awesome time.  I keep talking about it because it was an amazing experience.  I did something I have never done before.

I will never forget running my first half marathon and wanting to sleep forever after it was over.  I thought I would never run another race. I remember driving to Chambersburg like it was yesterday.  I think it was hard because I did not know what to expect.  I am how shall I say, “Anti Social.”  I arrived at the race and everyone looked at me like I was an alien.  I was wearing shorts and a tank top.  It was cold, but I was warm because I am from upstate New York and Pennsylvania was like the tropics to me.  When I ran my race, I finished in 1:55.  I do not know what has been happening to me but I think I need to figure it out.  I used to run under 1:45 with no problem.  I missed placing in my age group by about 30 seconds.  I wanted to stay and talk to everyone but it was hard.  There were a lot of people eating pizza and socializing.  I wish I could have but I could tell almost everyone was with company.  So I hopped in my car and put Rhode Island on my gps.

Rhode Island is amazing.  I cannot begin to tell you how beautiful it is there.  It was hard for me to drive there.  When I went through Connecticut, I went right past the place my ex boyfriend was staying in Mystic.  It is bizarre that this whole race addiction developed to get my mind off of him.  When I travel I am low key and I go to my hotel to shake off the car ride.  It can be pretty stressful.  When I arrived at the race, I met Andrea, Cindy, Amy, and Cynthia.  I had a great time and still talk to them!  I was so nervous about running another half marathon…but they do it all of the time…I had fun and did a better job at this race.  This is a race I signed up to do again in 2015.  I think I need to keep racing, even if I am not as fast.

My year went on and I did more and more races, filled with amazing people.  I guess that somewhere in the middle of this, I felt like I had lost myself in all of the traveling and fun.  I suddenly stopped and realized I needed to focus on figuring out why my time is so bad now.  I want Boston more than anything…

I have bad luck.  I have really, really  bad luck.  I do not know if I hold up a freak flag and make men run or if they are just intimidated by me.  It took a lot to go through divorce and it nearly killed me to go through being dumped by another.  I don’t remember when I got over it, but I know it was really hard.  I have always been rather sensitive…and rejection is never easy.  I think the hardest part about rejection is that they never really tell you why.  In my case it was also hard because he didn’t just leave me alone.  He had to get his car…but then he led me to believe we could work things out.  I do not understand how a guy dumps you and then deceives you into thinking it isn’t over just to sleep with you.  I am sure there are women out there just as bad but it is rotten and I just do not understand guys sometimes.  My dad was right. I should have had his car towed.

Moving on…I try to just focus on running and my beautiful daughter.  She is wonderful…My goal is to be the best mom in the world.  She is my life.

lillyrowShe is so special.  She wanted to play in the gym so we went.  How cute is she?  I have to focus on her.  I cannot wait to get out of work today and go get her! I think we are about the only school district who had school today.  It has been hard for me at work too.  I had this policy that I do not date work people.  Somewhere in the middle of all of this, I had someone in the district like me.  I said no and tried to discourage the person.  Well, I soon realized I did not want to discourage it.  When you are alone for so long, it is nice to feel admired.  He was good looking too.  We were supposed to go out on a date and I thought everything was fine.  Something understandable came up and he had to cancel.  I felt depressed.  I feel like I must have done something wrong.

I can’t think that way because it is something I cannot change.  I gave up a chance to go to X country nationals and be with Oiselle.  I have to stop giving up on myself and my dreams just because people run from me.  So I am hoping to get to New York City to run The Frozen Bonsai Half Marathon in Central Park this weekend.  I have to take the night bus to get there and hope I do not get lost when I get to NYC.  I need to do this.  I also feel a little silly.  I do not want much for Christmas.  I have never had a good slow dance.  I don’t even really remember having one. My ex husband did not like to dance.  We did not have dancing at our wedding.  My ex boyfriend didn’t invite me to a wedding but wanted me to be dd.  He asked me to slow dance.  He ruined it.  I feel dumb because I wish work guy would have been the one to ask.  I was worth dating.  I wish we had our date.  I can’t change it though.  I want my slow dance for Christmas…if not this year…next year.  Until then, I am living the life of my dreams….I want to go to Europe…so…here is to NYC!!!  Here I come!

What is Next?

“I run because long after my footprints fade away, maybe I will have inspired a few to reject the easy path, hit the trails, put one foot in front of the other, and come to the same conclusion I did: I run because it always takes me where I want to go.”
Dean Karnazes

oswegoIt was a quiet Thanksgiving vacation for me this year!  I did get back into running more.  I have been pretty good this past week.  I was just shy of 40 miles, but with my knee still causing me trouble…I will take it!!!  I even had a good long run on Saturday for 90 minutes. I am doing 45-60 minutes of base runs, one day off, one day with hills, and one long run…90 minutes.  I wanted to do two hours, but I figured that it was a good start and I should not push my luck.

So why the gloomy picture?  It isn’t gloomy to me.  Some people like to run when it is sunny and there is a lot to see…me, I love the water.  It is pretty funny when I hate swimming in the open water.  I hate the open water because I almost drowned when I was a kid!!!!

My times are not fast at all, but some people would love them so I should count myself lucky!  I have been trying to focus more on enjoying running than winning.  I should be happy I had those moments.  I should get back into sprinting, but I love the long distance.  Sprinting is more successful for me, but I get so competitive!!!  I am not as good at long distance so I have to work harder for it!  This year, I think 5th place was the worst i did in the 5k.  I won either 2,3, or 4th in the others.  I remember waking up for my duathlon in Rochester and I knew I couldn’t make it because I had overslept!!!  I hopped in my car and ran the Trout run in Deposit, which I had never heard of.  I won third place and a trout trophy.  Woo hoo…but I cannot do that in the half marathon.  My best finish ever was in the 2012 (I think) Run to the Sun in Watertown.  I won a massage with a time of 1:40….I think that liking something more challenging is a healthy thing…if it is too easy, it is easy to get mad at yourself or not enjoy it as much!  I know I am not a speed demon in the 5k, but I will always be happy with a pr of 20:33.  I would love love love to break 20…but I feel happy!

first thanksgivingThis year I did not have Lilly for Thanksgiving.  It was quiet and I went to my Cousin Judy’s house.  I had a good time.  That was the only interaction I had until my sister and her family came home.  I do not mind being alone, but it is strange to be a teacher and come home from school…to two days of solitude.  I know I am socially awkward and what not, but I like the noise…but I have to admit I got used to the quiet.  I enjoyed some good runs in Oswego, Ny and froze my face off!  I even saw a bunch of deer!!!

oswegonySo this is Lake Ontario in the Winter…well almost Winter.

I have been thinking about my goals for 2015.  I have been working on myself in this blog a lot!  I know I have a long way to go!!!!!!!  I confess I thought I had it figured out.  I wanted to go after a relationship, but sometimes I think that I have a great relationship already- RUNNING!!!!!

It seems silly and I do miss the times when people are happy together around the holidays.  I do hear a lot of people tell me I am lucky and should enjoy singletonville…I do enjoy it and there are a lot of times I do not.  I have to confess I have been wanting to go downtown and ice skate.  I want to have my slow dance and I am getting sick of traveling alone.  There are just times when it is harder to enjoy things alone.  However, I need to focus on my running.  I decided I am not going to cut my hair until I qualify for Boston…so I will probably look like cousin It.  I want to work on my speed and get into weight training and swimming…maybe even consider a 70.3 if I do not drown in a triathlon before a big one.  I need to see what I have left before I get too old!  I have a few races in mind for running but I do not want to share.  I need to be ready!!!!! So I need more long runs, speed, and weight training.  I am training with some fast guys!  I hope they help kick my ass into shape!!! I run with Wisam and Brett, who both did the Philadelphia Marathon in November.  They finished in 3:31 and 3:44 I think!!!!  Go boys!!!!  GIVE ME YOUR SPEED !!!!  Ha Ha.

I also want to have a great time with Lilly…she is awesome!!!!!!!  I am hoping to do something fun April break with her for her birthday!!!!  She will be five.  She deserves the best and I am excited to see what happens in 2015!!!!!

I am looking forward to Christmas.  I have Lilly for two weeks!  I love work, but I feel unnoticed and hope to be visible soon!