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Every Body Is Beautiful

“Your positive action combined with positive thinking results in success.”

IMG_8046I cannot stress this enough!!!!!

IMG_8041You do not need to be a disney princess, but you need to feel beautiful.  You might wonder why I am writing this post and what I have to say.  Well, there has been something on my mind for about a year now and I need to address it or I do not know if I can move on.  I shouldn’t care, but I need to care as a mom and a person.

Before I start, I have to share my pictures from this weekend!!!  Lilly ran her first Boilermaker!!!!!

 

 

She fell in the beginning, but she got right up and ran the entire 1/2 miles! I am so proud of her!!!!  I cannot wait to see what she does next.

This past year has been a big up and down roller coaster for me.  I am not sure if this is a surprise or not to you.  I know it is not to Andrew and I am glad he is so patient.  So where do I begin?

IMG_8001Here is good.  This is from when I did the Mad Half Marathon when I was in excellent running shape.  I was younger and faster…naive.  I got smarter after this and though I was not as fast, I enjoyed running.  I started dating Andrew in 2015 and he had the idea I should run with other people.  I do enjoy running with other people.  I am not very outgoing, despite being a teacher.  My self-esteem is beyond atrocious.  After a little while, he set me up with someone to run with I had only seen a few times here or there.

Things worked out great.  Andrew and I were doing well and we got married in 2016!  We both wanted a small wedding with only about 30 guests, but I did not want to leave out my running partner.  I feel that when you run with someone on a weekly basis, it is easy to become close friends.  I still miss running with my friend, Melissa.  Here is a picture from our wedding:

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I do not like to wear a lot of makeup and when I run I definitely do not wear any.  I am not running for a beauty contest.

 

I remember helping her push to pr at a  half marathon. It made me cry and I hugged her. A week later she told me, “such and such said Beth just couldn’t let you beat her.” Made me sad to think someone would say that. When we were at odds she said that I didn’t want her to know what I was running because I was afraid she would beat me. Kind of silly. Anyone knows I am always trying to get people to sign up for races. I don’t care and if that is the way someone thinks, then maybe they need to examine their thinking.  I love running…for myself. I’m not there to beat YOU!

Later in the year, my friend and I ran a marathon and had a great time.  We both met our goals and talked about our next marathon.  Everything was fine.  I went on to run a half marathon the following weekend and then a 5k in Buffalo.  I was tired from my marathon and my half, but I still ran in the 23:30ish time.  I won my age group and I was shocked, but happy.

IMG_8043I think we sometimes surprise ourselves and this was a nice surprise on tired legs.

As the school year ended, my friend and I continued to run and have fun.  I was going to a girls camp over the summer for a weekend and needed to do a long run at night.  Sometimes when we run with people it is hard when we have two different plans or styles.  I remember it being super humid and I was not doing well.  I was on the canal and had to stop.  My friend looped back to me, which was nice.  Finally when there was about .3 miles left, she decided she needed to go.  I do not know why, but this made me sad because of the times she felt bad and I did not leave her.  Plus, I was not feeling well and thought I might pass out.  She needed to “maximize her energy.”  Well, I wanted to make it to my car and not pass out.  I just wish she would have waited.  I think that was an issue but deep down there was a lot bothering me.

I think every body is beautiful and you need to be beautiful on the inside before you can be beautiful on the outside.  Sometimes, there are things you just shouldn’t say to people no matter what.  I cannot remember all of it but I remember when she said her husband said, “he was surprised at how nice I looked at my wedding.”  She told me she told him, “well she is running with me so she doesn’t dress up.”  It just made me feel ugly.  When I ran that 5k in Buffalo, she told me, “yeah my husband said it must not have been very competitive.”

These things still bother me, but I would never say something like this to someone.  Why?  I just wouldn’t because it is mean.

 

I could ask why she never drove or why she wouldn’t pay me back for part of the hotel we stayed at for our marathon…but I am better than that.  It just crushes me to be so invested in a friendship and feel treated so poorly.

Moving on, we signed up for the 18.12.  When I was running, I saw her up ahead.  She was waiting at the porta potty.  She looked at her watch and looked at me then took off.  I was mad she just gave me that look.  Well she finished and I tried to invite her with us but she had to go.  Well, she accidentally texted me instead of her husband later.  “It was great aside from the added Beth drama.”

She wonders why I won’t run with her.  Well, she claimed she waited for me but when she was about ten feet ahead of me and takes off running, I simply do not understand the part about how she waited for me.  On top of all of this, she never wanted to drive.  Her car either smelled like gas or I do not know what.  Just like when she showed up to my car for a race with a garbage can, it was the bad food she ate and not the fact that she went on a wine tour.

I am almost done complaining I promise.  I tried to meet with her and talk.  She wanted me to apologize too.  I do not apologize to someone who calls my husband a chauffeur.  I do not apologize to someone who lets me know people are surprised that I can dress up nice. I would also never tell someone they only did good at a race because it must not have been very competitive.  I also think it is sad that she had her husband defriend my husband on Facebook like we are still in high school.  My husband is the nicest person.  I argue, one of the nicest in the world.  I feel like I have lost friends because of this too.  I feel like my husband has as well.  So I moved on after we met for dinner and I decided our friendship could not be saved.

 

 

Life is too short.  I have a beautiful daughter and husband.  I am trying to surround myself with people who are positive and I am so sorry if I have been the Debbie Downer of the bunch!

I have started to run with people again, but it is hard for me to forget about the things that my last partner said.  Whenever I run with someone, I am constantly asking myself if I am too slow or annoying…and I do not know how to stop except to push myself harder until I go so fast that I puke and forget about it.

So life has been really up and down.  It is the domino effect.  It is also really hard to move on from someone you spent so many cold mornings running with.

So I have been absent from this blog for a very long time and I am hoping to dust off the cobwebs and come back to positive land.  So let’s see what happens next…

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You Are Gonna Run Out There???

“Remember the feeling you get from a good run is far better than the feeling you get from sitting around wishing you were running.”
-Sarah Condor

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Today it said the weather was 15 outside, but the windchill was -3…I have been traveling so I needed to run…burrrrrrrrr. I am happy I went out but holy f- it was cold and I felt like I had little pieces of glass flying at my face. I only did 2.5 miles at a 9:06 pace but I will take it over nothing.

My weekly mileage sucked and I was 30 short from reaching my goal but this weather has been mad crazy. I am happy to see some warmer weather in the forcast. I am hoping for some longer runs on Thursday and Friday. It is supposed to be a heatwave of 36.
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Dear sweet Saranac….oh how I love thee beer…and the race is wonderful. I made up my mind. I am too excited about the Shipyard Half Marathon. I will receive a free hat, clothes, a medal, and race entry into the half marathon. I love Portland. It is a great city and Shipyard beer is wonderful. I am so excited to have a chance to help people finish their first half marathon or give them a wonderful pace to follow. I love running and helping people out. I love teaching but if I could get paid to teach people to run and it could support me I would totally do it. I am curious to know if I have to carry a sign if I can keep it??? Ha ha I want to have it.

My next race is the Tipp Hill Four miler in Syracuse. I am happy to be running this but the hill at the end sucks. I need to get in some hill training and some races so I can practice pacing myself. I have been out of the race circuit for too long. I need to get my race on and this is my chance. Then I have to drive to Rhode Island for a half marathon. I am excited to cross another race off my list. I should get a map of the world and United States to cross them off.

Pace This!

A lot of people run a race to see who is fastest. I run to see who has the most guts, who can punish himself into exhausting pace, and then at the end, punish himself even more.

Steve Prefontaine

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I start my post of tonight with one word: SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! Why such a choice in words? You have no idea, but you will agree with me after I explain the vulgarity. I am currently pounding my head on the table as I write this post.

If you know me well enough, there is one other goal I have besides Boston. I want to be a genuine marathon and half marathon pacer. For those of you who have no idea what that means, let me tell you. A marathon pacer is someone who is your “savior” during a race. It is a crucial job because you carry a key sign. That sign represents the time you will finish the race. Running is a sport, but when you have been in it for a while you get a feel for the time and it becomes like a metronome. You follow the beat of your feet and all of your miles are in sync. Some pacing groups are so strict you can only finish within 30 seconds of the time your sign has. Unfortunately, there is no hiding the sign at the finish line. If you mess up, bye bye pacing.

If you are lucky enough to be a pacer, you are a motivator. You get your “groupies” to finish. I first became interested in it when I sought to break the infamous 1:40 mark in a race. It was the Wineglass Half Marathon in Corning, NY. That was a great race. The pacer was awesome and I passed her at mile 9 and made sure I could see her all the way to the finish. It worked!

Pacers do receive perks, which is good for people like myself, who cannot afford tons of races. We get free race entry, clothing, sometimes shoes, a medal most times, a hat, and all sorts of wonderful things. I am in it to help people finish the race. I cannot wait.

So I was reading up about a race and they had a post for pacers. I wanted it bad. I submitted my information. I received an email tonight and he is interested in me being a pacer. He wanted to make sure I could run in the heat, which is pretty funny. I have run in all sorts of weather conditions.
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“The Old Port Shipyard Half Marathon.”

This race is great. Here is my problem. The race is on July 13, 2014. The race is in Portland, Maine. I ran it in 2012 and loved it. The race does go near the highway, but you run by the ocean and on a farm. It was great and I finished in 1:50, even with an uneventful bathroom break (a rarity for me). I am going to a wedding at 2 p.m. (I will no skip he wedding) the day before in Syracuse, NY. The race is also the same day as the notorious Boilermaker. The Boilermaker is a 15k, but the beer is delicious. Shipyard beer is also served at the Old Port Shipyard half marathon. pac

What does one do? This has been a dream of mine and it is within grasp, but so is reality. What if this opportunity never comes again? Do I drive to Maine after the wedding and run tired? Do I give up on it for now and hope another opportunity comes? I don’t know what to do….I am feeling bummed…

So the only word I can think of is, “shit.” If it were any other weekend the entire year, I would be able to do it for sure.