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Post- Ironman Relay

“Determination gives you the resolve to keep going in spite of the roadblocks that lay before you.”

It is Wednesday and I have not had a chance to recap some of the race and to share how my week has been going or not going.

So we finished 5th in the relay, but I am not sure if we were 5th or 4th.  I think we did awesome but I wish I could have ran a little faster.  I know I am hard on myself, but I do think I could have done better.  I do not know what to do.

 

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Kim did awesome on the swim. She finished in 27 minutes, which placed her 8th out of the female. I think that is amazing and I hope she can go pro someday.

I do not know how she does it. She could swim for days!!!!!!
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I want to drown just looking at this picture!!!!! I cannot believe how crowded it is.

After Kim ran in at a great pace, Aaron took over on the bike. I think he did an awesome job as well!!!!
He finished in 3:03. scaredaaron

I think for someone who hasn’t been racing he did a great job and he was hard on himself too…so was Kim. I think because I am the runner it is natural for me to be hard on myself too…we are all good at our sports, but I have been sucking for a while and need to get out of it.

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I thought I had finished in 1:48 (which is still slow for me) but I forgot to start my watch so I finished in 1:50. I was so exhausted that I did not hear them announce our team and say what a great name that was.
I remember the days when I would finish and I would not be tired and my time would be 1:40….I miss those days and I am sad. I need to find it in me to do the one thing well that I love.scared

We are already in talks about next year. I hope we do it so I can redeem myself. We will see…I would like to do one on my own and I have my first open water swim class I am going to tomorrow night at Jamesville beach. I hope I like it and I do not drown.

I feel like an idiot too because I think being alone is why I am not doing well. I know it is speedwork too…but when you are going for so long and you feel this lack of affection in your life, it seems like it is taking a toll. I think I can get over this feeling because I do not know what life has in store for me. I want to be happy and to be with someone but I cannot let it get in the way of my goals. The truth is, I like someone…but I haven’t dated in so long, I just need to relax and see what happens (He already knows I like him).

I want to run in Boston and I want to do well in life but I have to get by this road block. I need to focus and just learn to beeeeeeee happy!!!!!

I have self confidence but lately I have had a lot of people say I look too skinny or that I need more meat on my bones. I look sickly…I eat trust me and I try to over eat too but it makes me sick to my stomach to eat too much. I do not know what to do.

I also got offered summer school. I am not going to lie, I guess a part of me does not want to work….then there is this part that says I can run away and sign up for a million races…I keep running. I do not know why?

Confession: Besides Boston, I want to run a marathon or half on all of the continents. I want to do the Berlin Marathon and the Paris Marathon. I am still bummed about PAris. I will get over it. Berlin is in September but I do not have the ability to go…maybe next year. I want to be a faster runner before I go there. I think it would be amazing….

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Ironman relay Syracuse #13 half

I am waiting for a full team picture since our biker had to be roped into a picture! Our team name was “scared hitless.”  Kim rocked the swim in 27 minutes! She is amazing, fast, and a wonderful 20 year old…she liked the pro Australian today. We must find her one!!!!

 

aaron rocked the bike in 3 hours flat! He said it was, “rough.” By the look on his face, I think it was an understatement!!!!

 

i started the run and forgot to hit my watch. Once again as team captain I vote myself weakest link.  I had a great time though I went out too fast. I thought my time was 1:48 but realized I didn’t remember the watch. It was 1:50.  I’m disappointed because I wanted to get us 3rd place.  My first mile  was 6:15…. Too fast…. On the downhill I made up some time but I really need to get my speed back. I’m a little scared that I have lost it for good.  I don’t want much in life but I want to be strong.

I need to get ten minutes off my time so it’s going to be ambition, dedication, and a lot of hurt…makes it hard when I’m alone. My back and knees hate me now 😦

 I did have the finish of a lifetime.  For a brief time, I was that girl who sprinted like there was no tomorrow.  I miss it…. I think with all of the people out there and friends cheering me on!!!! That sure helped.  I did not ask so ill leave you nameless but shout out to someone on the run course!!!! You were inspiring and did the whole race…. But still had energy to cheer me on!!!!! You are friggan amazing and rock! Thank you so much.  I owe that awesome finish to you!  

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